The Life and Feelings of LTC

Wave bye bye to 2011 and welcome 2012 with open arm

2011-12-31T16:25:00.003+08:00

I do realise I have a blog and I guess The Life and Feelings of LTC would be the best place to put my feelings into words in order to sum up 2011.

Studies
When 2011 came, I knew that SPM is the final battle I needed to face in my secondary school life. I had a total different mindset in facing SPM compared to PMR. There was no heavy pressure on myself to achieve any target for SPM since I set no target for myself. I intended just to go through this year with the same work ethic and mentality I had in 2010,which brought me the biggest breakthrough in my studies. And it worked out well for me. Even though I did not achieve any breakthrough for my studies in 2011, I'm glad that I was able to keep up where I left off in 2010. After SPM ended, I have to say I found it relatively easier to handle compared to PMR. Not that I say SPM is an easy exam to face,but I felt so much more comfortable and so much more prepared for each and every single exam I took in Form 5, partly thanks to my big turnaround during 2010 which gave me so much confidence to face SPM. Never had I felt so enjoyable facing my studies. I'm very proud to say that I did not fell in the midst of hardship and did not let tears flow due to pressure. To sum up perhaps the most boring topic, I just hope that I will not regret with all the things that I had done for SPM this year and pray that everything will turn out nice and worthwhile when March 2012 came. =)

Class & School
In terms of this, there was no doubt I came in 2011 with a satisfied heart. I got exact the class I wanted to be in: 5 Angsana. I felt very comfortable being in this class because the study environment is perfectly suited for SPM. I really enjoyed with the life in this class. Everything works out so professionally. The class teacher,Encik Amir is awesome. And every single 5 Angsanians of 2011 is great. I felt so much more attached to each and every single of you. I felt belonged to this group of people and you all gave me a great year to live with.

As for school,I dun have much things to talk about. I guess being under the roof of 5 Angsana class is best enough to define my last year in secondary school life.

Friends
My biggest appreciation has to go to Ming Yang and Kar Leong. Throughout my life, I don't think I have any close friends until you two appeared in my life. I have to say the year that I really felt so much closer to you guys is this year. The first 2 years in my secondary school life I was more of a lone ranger. Even during Form 3 I din really felt that close to you guys until I was separated from you guys during 2010. People often say you won't miss something until you lost it. It was a huge relief to be in the same class with you two again this year. Thanks for guiding and supporting me not only this year,but my entire secondary school life. You two are my best bro. xD

To Sue Fen as well as Sook Yi, you two changed me into a better self. Despite the misunderstanding in the middle of this year,I felt so glad that we can resolve all the misunderstanding and become friends again. Thank you for being understanding as a friend and always be there whenever I need to pour out my feelings. I sincerely appreciate these friendships.

Kanesh, you have been a patient friend to me. It's great to have you as one of my study partners throughout the year. Gwen,your laugh will always enlighten not only my life but many people's life. A special friend indeed and I love you. =D Chia Xin,it's great to know you. Thanks for all the ride this year. Pauline and Christie,you two are great to be with. Thanks for all the fun time this year. Desmond,Kai Hoong,Jeff and Koon Thong,thanks for all the great time on the basketball court as well as off the court. Wan Jiun,your craziness is the one that I will miss the most about you.

Well,I guess that's all I got to say. It's not easy to get this post done since I really don't know what to write. But nonetheless I'm determined to get my blog posts in double digits every year. Guess I just managed it heh? xD

2011 is history and 2012 is the present as well as the future. I pray for myself as well as everyone. Let's hope for a better and happier 2012.

From TC with love. =D

So called "Singaporean"

2011-12-08T00:13:00.006+08:00

Yeah,I know I always treat some people who are academically weaker with this attitude:

TC: Darn,too many silly mistakes,how to get A+ la if it's 91 marks and above? *show the irritating sad face*

Whenever I say this,I'm sure most of the people hate me for that,because they might be thinking "shuddup la you think you are so good arr". Or perhaps some people with low dignity will feel bad for themselves whenever I said this.

Anyway,I'm not going to satirize myself for being an arrogant person here. The purpose of writing this post is to safeguard the true Malaysians' dignity. *remember to cheer for me after reading this post =P*

Apparently,I saw someone writing in his blog saying that SPM is easy. Well,the tone of saying it is full of ego in my view. I guess the so-called "Singaporean" must have forgotten where he actually came from.

Honestly, if you ask me whether O Levels is harder or SPM is harder, I think the answer is very subjective in my humble opinion. Two factors come into my mind when I try to answer the question mentioned above. First of all,it depends on whether you are a Malaysian or Singaporean. Second,it depends whether you are a smart student or weak student.

Let's talk about the first factor then. It is undeniable that both Malaysians and Singaporeans are taking a different examination system. For the Malaysians, it is SPM. For the Singaporeans,it is O Levels. Honestly, when the so called ''Singaporean" said come on dude and dudettes(in Malaysia),get a grip,SPM is easy, I find him to be such a ridiculous person. I laughed,laughed at a person who was once considered a joke in examination(IN MALAYSIA), boasted about how easy is SPM syllabus,like a piece of cake with cream filling. I know people tend to be forgetful,but let me remind you that you were once the person who was shameful of yourself facing smart Malaysians whenever they asked about your marks. Yeah,time flies. You had transformed from a joke into something err...neither fish nor fowl or neither a Malaysian nor a Singaporean,which you considered yourself a class above than the rest of the Malaysians who cried about how difficult the questions are and how stressful the exam is. You have even grown up,taking your O Levels exam like a man,compared to a little mice last time who did not even have the guts to talk about exam with the Malaysian which you considered they should rejoice about how easy SPM is.

To round off the first factor,I feel that you should never say how easy SPM is. Yeah,you might say it is easy because you feel that whatever you learnt for O Levels is way harder than SPM. You do have a point here because you had studied in both Malaysia and Singapore. But PLEASE consider this: IF you have never studied in Singapore and you're still staying in Malaysia taking SPM like the rest of us,would you even dare to say to the smart Malaysians that SPM is easy? You might have the guts to say it,but you know what,there will be no so-called perfect Singaporean standing by your side on this case like what you have now when you said SPM is easy. Those Singaporeans might even look at you the same way you're looking at us,the Malaysians.

Let's move on to the second factor. You know what? I dare not say that I'm academically better than you because there's no way I could compare myself to you when we are taking a different examination system. Kudos and bravos to you for turning into a better student because you completed your secondary education in Singapore. However,I DO HAVE THE GUTS to say that I COULD BE BETTER THAN YOU if I'm studying in Singapore like you. You might be thinking this is bullshit,but I don't think it's bullshit because you have never proven to me that you are academically better than me when you were still in Malaysia. On the other hand,you too could never prove to me that you are academically better than me even if we both study in Singapore,because that will never happen. You said you took your O Levels like a man(even the girls). I can say the same thing to you that I,LIKE MOST OF THE MALAYSIANS,TOOK OUR SPM LIKE A MAN(EVEN THE GIRLS).

To say the least about the second factor,when you are smart enough,you won't think the exam is hard,like how you consider yourself to be smarter than those Malaysians who cried about SPM. No one in Malaysia here claim they are smart because we all felt that our SPM is not like a piece of cake with cream fillings,just like no one in Singapore claim they are smart because they all do not consider their O Levels is like a piece of cake with cream fillings. We,both Malaysians and Singaporeans took our exam like a man.

Yes,you are right that we,the Malaysians should stop pitying ourselves because you consider SPM to be easy. Very true,because WE,THE MALAYSIANS should pity you for taking O Levels which you consider to be way way harder than SPM,because you were the one who chose to study there,leaving your own country. So,good luck for your fucking exam.

Signing off. *gosh,I suddenly feel like I'm a hero to all the 2011 SPM students. OMG I'M SO PERASAN.*

2011-10-07T03:14:00.000+08:00

Just because we don't talk doesn't mean I don't think about you. I'm just trying to distance myself because I know I can't have you.

Post-trial life

2011-09-29T01:15:00.004+08:00

Well,since Gwen said my blog has been dead,I guess I might need to take a little effort to revive it before I get back to my studies. Just a reminder though. Dun read this if you are not interested to know about my life. It's quite long and boring...I think.

Well,I guess I don't have any emotional problem to talk about because I'm pretty fine with all the things around me. So,let's just talk about life itself. Ya,post-trial life.

Last Wednesday,the day when I had my last paper for trial,Chemistry P1. Pauline was surprised that I did not gather my usual gang to check the answers for the paper,which I normally did. Well,I was too overjoyed that it's finally over and I dun wish to let the paper destroy that little pure excitement of finishing the trial. I couldn't sit still when Pn. Suhana was going to collect the papers. A little rise smile from her face showed that she understood how relieve I was that the trial is over. I guess nothing much happened after I went home. Facebooking, sleeping,went to tuition and then playing PS. There goes my 1st day after finish trial.

Last Thursday, I couldn't remember what significant thing happened that day,or perhaps nothing significant at all. Went to school. Did the usual thing. Talked n talked somemore. Went home. The same thing I did the previous day. Sorry,I can't remember anything about this particular day anymore.

Last Friday, went to school. The teacher gave us a little briefing about the graduation ceremony. The main topic was our etika pemakaian. During that briefing,I borrowed a book from Kanesh entitled Honor Among Thieves by Jeffrey Archer. Since I planned to enjoy that particular week after exam finished,I just randomly grabbed the book from him n read for fun. Nice book though. Ming,Teo and Kanesh have been reading Jeffery Archer's book since dunno when. I din follow them to read because I dun like to read much. Perhaps the only book which I'm really interested in reading is about China history. But I din get myself reading this year though since revision book has been my top choice this year...sort of. So,after the briefing,we had some so-called-moral programme,which is the particular programme to 'spend our time wisely' when the Muslim students have their so-called-more-meaningful Islam programme. Well,I have to admit this activity is better than Pn. Lim's counselling programme though. I really couldn't stand 3-4 hours of meditation with her,thank god. After school, I went home, ate my lunch,bathed and watched some live badminton match of our proud Datuk Lee Chong Wei. After that,from 5p.m. to 12a.m. I did my homework for the Sunway A-Level Scholarship interview. 7 hours. Wow,I was so tired because I din take my usual afternoon nap. I was eagerly anticipated for the interview that was about to take place the following day. First time I attended an interview. Ya,I'm pretty hardworking and serious towards my 1st interview.

Last Saturday, I followed Kanesh's father's car to Sunway College. Arrived there,had a little discussions with fellow SBSians before entering a hall to have a little briefing about the interview. During the briefing,I was going through my homework for the interview. Out of nowhere,someone I known was asking me whether I was memorising for the interview. What the fuck?! So you think I'm some little nerd student who dunno how to think to speak? ==

After the briefing,the interview started. Gwen was the 1st among the SBSians to go for the interview. Had some fine moments with Kanesh,and my seniors from Sunway before I went for my interview. One student from Sunway led me and another Indian student to the outside of the classroom where we will have our interview. Was given a case studies for 15 mins before I entered the room. It's about child behavior. Guess it's quite a general topic as compared to my other friends. Kanesh's one is about dog. Pearly's and Christie's one about aeroplane. Michelle's one is about junk food. I took around 8 mins to get a deep understanding about my case studies. It din take long since it's a relatively common topic. I asked to go into the interview room early but the student asked me to wait. So,I looked outside the window. Watched the bright sunshine. Tried to compose myself.

When I got into the interview room,I wasn't feeling nervous. Guess I did a great job in composing and relaxing myself to get myself ready. I had a relatively nice interview though,for 1st timer like me. I was asked about my students reporter and basketball. Din get nervous during the interview. Hope that I gave a good impression for the interviewer. Perhaps I got a little too excited in the end. Forgot to give a handshake to the interviewer. Left the room with a thank you.

After the interview, Kanesh's dad fetched me home. I got some bathing before I followed his father car to tuition again. Add Maths class was usual but I was not in the mood to study Motion along a straight line since I wanted to enjoy life without worrying about studies. Maths class was about the same. Wasn't really listening to Kung since it's just some questions for revision. I finished the questions on my own. Got my 50 bucks from him as a reward for my trial's maths exam. After tuition,went to eat at Wong Si Nai. Had some great chatting with Teo,Sok Yean,Sook Yi and Miow before I decided to stay for bio extra class. Well,his class was jam packed since many people that were not suppose to be in the class were in the class,including me. Had some great moment with the SBU gang. The class ended at 9p.m. 4 hours and he din teach much...usual la. After that,went home by followed Michelle's parents' car.

Last Sunday, I did a little shopping with my mum at Jusco for my graduation's attire. I dunno how to describe the attire since I dun have good English to describe it. Just want to say that I felt I looked great in the outfit. Sook Yi commented I need a nice haircut to look better during graduation.

I guess that's all for this. This week has been about wasting time chit-chatting while waiting to get back the trial results. BYE!

Please don't be too tolerant on me

2011-07-31T02:52:00.002+08:00

I feel so stupid when this came into my mind but after thinking about it,I'm a little unsure whether I should feel glad or sad about it.

You know I consider myself very lucky because I have a bunch of friends who understand me. And they have been very tolerant and accept me for who I am. But after some kind of dispute with someone,I started to feel bad for myself.

My good friends have been way too tolerant on me. I never doubt that I really had a problem in controlling my temper when things doesn't go my way. When I'm losing my temper,my anger started to overwhelm my conscious. My good friends started to be passive towards my anger because they knew well that I couldn't really think wisely when I'm angry. To make matter worse,I started to assume that this is me and if my friends can't accept my temper,don't be friend with me then. Whatever I done wrong in life,they just assume that oh this is TC,so just let it be. Because of this,I started to lose the sense that I need to learn from my mistake because my good friends should be tolerant and forgive what I done wrong.

Well,I hope my friends can do a simple favor for me by not being too tolerant towards what I did wrong. I know most of you assume that it's pointless to explain to me because I'll never listen. But please,don't do that. Point out what I did wrong and explain to me. Let me value myself. When the explanation goes into my brain,it would become a valuable lesson to me.

Please, teach me the values of life.

没想到你是如此感性。=）

2011-07-13T23:40:00.003+08:00

回忆起我如何放下那半年都不到的爱情，真觉得没什么大不了。

阅读了你的部落格，我开始觉得你是如此地感性。

从你的那些字里，我意识到你是多么地爱他，知道你正在很痛苦地放下那个三年的恋情。

我断然地觉得自己很侥幸。那半年都不到的爱情虽然对我来说算是轰轰烈烈，但是我可以很潇洒地放下。=)

虽然我是暗恋你，但是我和你纯粹只是片面之交的朋友。

但是你的感性不仅让我对你暗恋的欲望没有如此深了，而且让我更欣赏你。

The winner and the pretender

2011-06-30T00:48:00.009+08:00

If you are a great winner,no one will be jealous of you,but admiring you instead. If you are the pretender and just appear to be better than most of the people when the fact is you only win in small occasion,no doubt people will be jealous of you because they think you are just too cocky and they too can be better than you.

It just seems that you are not so a great winner to them. People don't just despise you for your so-called achievement, people despises you for pretending you achieved something. Quit your insecurity of people's jealousy and stop finding excuses to convince yourself that people despises you because you are too perfect for them.

And,just in case you didn't notice,you should mirror yourself and probably you will find out that you are just the same as the others. There is a chance part of you are just as selfish and as jealous as you had mentioned. You are just jealous of others who are least successful but apparently more likeable than you. Thus,you go all the way defending yourself for not being accepted by others because they are just jealous of you.

Lastly,continue your effort to be a true winner that wins people's admiration. No one will take anything away from what you really achieved or contributed by simply being jealous.

A true winner wins people's admiration by action.
A pretender wins only jealousy by talking.

p.s. I do not intend to make myself look mighty or holly by just writing this post. I wrote this for you to reflect back on yourself. Everyone needs to reflect themselves at certain point in their life.

Come on,you are just like me,human. Selfish,jealous and disgusting as you mentioned. Yes, I am selfish,jealous and disgusting because I'm a human too. And you said human nature is selfish,jealous and disgusting. I guess you are selfish,jealous and as disgusting as those who criticized you. If you say you are not,good for you then. Perhaps I should look up to you as my prophet or maybe my next generation will be praying at your feet as the holly god.

You can say I should judge myself before judging and criticizing others. I learned my lessons and reflected myself in my life. I WAS a cocky and immature person and at the same time I AM cocky and immature. That's human. A human reflects himself/herself and changes but can never be perfect.

Lastly,there's no fucking need for me to win the whole world's heart to be with me against you by just simply writing this. I do not need to win people's heart,but I intend for people to follow my heart. If they do not accept my mistakes or attitude or opinions,fine for me. I accept their opinion.

BUT YOU? Trying your fucking best to win people's heart and at the same time criticize those who do not accept you and jealous of you by finding excuses for your flaws. People ONLY criticizes you for a reason. You don't get an echo if the wall doesn't reflect.

Seriously,if you could just ignore others' jealousy of you and reflect on your high and achievement in your life,you will be much happier. I believe there's always friends to share those high and joy with you. More importantly,you should really judge and reflect yourself. There's no need to be fuss over others' criticism of you if you are right by your own right. Why goes writing status and post to vent your frustrations of others' criticism of you? It just led people to know there's people who criticize you and MOST importantly, let those who criticized you to continue criticizing you.

p.s. Honestly,put the villain tag on me because I believe you had one yourself too. =)

Not-a-good-friend-to-be

2011-03-02T01:02:00.001+08:00

Perhaps I've never been a good friend to anyone.

It's just a matter whether someone accept me as a friend or not.

I dun mean anything in anyone's life.

Why not take some time off to breathe?

2011-01-30T21:21:00.003+08:00

It feels funny sometimes when I see some of my friends complaining about things happened in life. From the tonnes of homework to the teachers' unreasonably expectation,from the dissastification of some particular person to the complaining of he or she. I seriously can't understand and unable to feel what they are feeling right now.

I knew life hasn't been that wonderful this year. But somehow I really don't know how I am able to take everything that comes into my life so far. This year certainly doesn't feel the same way for me like 2009 or 2010. I feel I can really take on my life this year so much better than the previous 2 years. I couldn't have imagine this before 2011 actually began.

Perhaps pressure hasn't really got into me yet. Perhaps my life is simpler than others. But now,I just feel good about life. I don't complain anything that happened this year as often as last time. I just accept whatever comes into my life. I just follow the flow. I don't feel anything being the obstacle there in my life yet. That's cool.

To those friends who's been complaining hell heck this year has been so hectic and stressful,I sincerely hope you people can feel the same way as I feel about myself and this year. You all might say that I've been like a robot this year,working non-stop crazily. You all might say that my life is so simple or perhaps too dull. But hey! Try to look at this way,you guys and girls just want a simple life right? I am having a simple life,probably a little dull. Why don't you all just try to think simple? Just accept things that comes into your life. You can't expect a simple life when everyone of us is on the brink of being 17 years old or is already a seventeen years old teenager. Stop complaining about this and that. Life could have been simpler if you look at it in a different view.

p.s. ya I know some ppl might think I'm just like you all last time. Although I might be going back to the old me when pressure is getting into my head,but HEY! REMEMBER THIS! I've changed a lot more than before. Cheer and be happy for me. (This is so lame =.=)

You realized another dream of mine =)

2011-01-28T20:24:00.006+08:00

Well,first post of the year. Ya pretty much busy with studies. But I couldn't leave this away from my blog. It meant so much for me.

I wonder what birthday means to everyone of you. For me,it feels very much just like another day. It din change until my 12th birthday. How silly it would be for me to remind myself what happened on the 31 January 2006. I wrote on my calender,I was unhappy because I don't have a birthday cake. LOLS

Into my 13th birthday,I still remember it's just another day,a Thursday. Because I was new in SBS and a couple of days into the school,that's no one who actually knows my birthday. Into my 14th birthday,perhaps I could remember this one better because in my memory,I dun remember be4 31 January 2008 there are any friends who's birthday wish actually kept in my memory,except this year in which I received lots of birthday wish from my schoolmates and friends. And I learned a new phrase,happy BELATED birthday,which comes from Jia Yi. HAHA...I din know ppl can still wish you happy BELATED birthday when your birthday had actually passed. LOLS

Into my 15th birthday. Ya this would of course sticked to my mind. My family celebrated my birthday. I dun quite remember which other birthday of mine that was celebrated by my family except this one. I feel happy. =D My sweet 16th birthday? Nothing memorable for me. It's just another day. How sad =( xD

I couldn't really understand the hapiness in which when I celebrated my birthday with my frenz. Because I din hold a birthday party be4 for myself. Well,I've been into some birthday party,for example Koon Thong's(twice),Soo Jean's and Wei Yee's(both once). It feels great to be in a birthday party. Everyone hang around together sharing the joy of celebrating one's birthday. I've been in some surprise birthday celebration as well. Like those friends suddenly turned out with a birthday cake and sing birthday song to you. Ya I had seen those birthday boy or girl celebrating their birthday with a cake and song from their friends.

I just never experience either one be4 at all. My family din hold a birthday party for me to invite friends,although there's once in which my mum offer me the chance but I declined. My schoolmates and friends during my primary life had never celebrate my b'day be4. During secondary life it's the same. Form 1 no one knows my birthday. Form 2 just birthday wishes from my friends on a particular friday. Form 3 my b'day fall on Saturday,no school. Form 4 same case.
HAHA,this person looks silly. LOLS

Well,ya...The silly person above realized one of my sort-of-childhood dream today. She bought me a birthday cake and held a surprise birthday celebration for me. =)

My heart can't really feel what's the feeling of a frenz holding a surprise birthday celebration for me,what's more this friend is the most important friend I ever have so far in my life. The feeling can't really sink in my heart that moment during recess because I was in a bit of rush during recess. Goin down to the koperasi to fotostat my class's new timetable,rushing down the canteen trying to get some food as I was hungry. I can't even realise that's a bunch of frenz waiting to give me a surprise birthday celebration as I zoomed past them to a store and order one plate of kuoy teow and fried rice.

That moment when I'm ready to pay for my kuoy teow and fried rice,my best buddy,Ming came and told me Sue Fen belanja me. I was a little confused as I dun rmb I had any bet with her about belanja me makan. I was a little hesitated and paid my kuoy teow and fried rice. Then she came,rushing to me and saying something like WOI SHIT YOU. I was still like a dumb ass n took my two plates of kuoy teow n fried rice and follow her to a table.

As I'm about to reach the table,I saw it. A bunch of friends surrounding a lighted birthday cake. It's a surprise birthday celebration for me from Sue Fen. I'm sorry because I was too surprised and the feeling can't sink into my heart as I'm in a busy state of mind. But off the celebration go. Birthday song from my friends,birthday wish.

Perhaps it's true I'm not good at expressing myself. Hopefully these words do the job for me:

I'm seriously touched. It's just great to have you realizing this little dream of mine,a birthday celebration from my friends. Perhaps you are the perfect person to realize this dream. I know both of us have such great memories in each other life. Although it seems in some way I don't mean much to you,but you mean so much for me. From the day we became close friends till now,no matter me and you were friend,couples or are soulmate,you never stop bringing memorable memories to my life. I'm happy to go through these precious time together with you. And still you are the most important friend and best soulmate of mine.

p.s. Perhaps I remembered I told you nowadays my heart is like so icy cold that I hardly able to shed a tears out my tears gland. The last time I really cried it was because of you. And yeah,you melted my heart successfully. I'm able to shed tears out of my tears gland,like finally. Those tears are so warm. I miss the day when we both cried together because of each other. =D

Thank you so much for the memories. I love you,Leong Sue Fen,a great friend of mine.

学记

2010-12-25T23:11:00.002+08:00

不知不觉，我踏上了学记之路。一开始，我根本没心参加学记。只是因为前女友的缘故，我才答应珈杏学姐加入学记。过后与前女友分手了，她也缺席学记培训营，我就更加没心参加学记。去培训营，我的心态只是参加一个营吧了。在培训营，被骂到狗血淋头。根本不知道什么事，被骂到麻木。培训营就没多大的意义过去了。只领悟到自己已经是学记和多了一个身份。

培训营后，一直无心投入学记活动。缺席会议，没做好计划书。原因是因为我不享受太广的人际交流。而我也因学业的理由，不想添多一份责任。曾经想要退出学记，但同届与学姐的劝导下，我选择留下。虽然选择留下，不始终还是没有那颗心。

不知道为何，我参加了下乡营。这是学哥学姐们为我们24届办的最后一个营。在营里我当上了组长。我开始领悟到与学记们的生活。我也知道学哥学姐们对我的爱心。在营里面的坦诚相对与拥抱，我哭了。这是我在学记生涯里流的第一滴眼泪。

宝贝营的会议我根本没出席过，没什么准备就去当上了场地组工委。与同届学记并肩筹办一个营的经验印象深刻。大家一起努力地付出。大家互相帮忙、爱护及体谅。这个营也是我第一次为学记奉献自我。

全国营。这个营我差一点就没去了。还记得，打给珈杏学姐告诉她我不想去。我听到了她对我失望的声音。她对我已经毫无办法了。但在她对我失望的同时，她没放弃我。与她半个小时的谈话，她改变了我的心态，也改写了我的学记生涯。参加了学记全国营，我的心结被打开了。学记在我生命里的定义也换了。

因为与家人去旅行，我没有去到成长营。所以我选择参加饥饿30营。在营里与学记们分享点点滴滴，是很美好的回忆。什么都不需要烦，尽情享受与他们聚集在一起的时光。我，更加爱我的学记战友。

培训营，我才第一次投入筹办活动。我回到我学记生涯领导我的同届麾下，也进入同一个组。我和依盈= 场地组。哈哈！筹办的过程中，我开始觉得内疚。之前的营，我根本没有为同届付出过。筹办的过程中，我也体验到学记之情，也更体会什么是奉献。培训营里，我找回了我所失去的回忆。看到学弟学妹被培训，想起了自己在被培训时是多幸福。哈哈！培训营结束后，我也卸任了。其实一点都不觉得什么，因为我的学记之心来的迟。一切都好像才开始。我的学记之路开始了新的旅程。

一言难尽，我想感谢各位学哥学姐。谢谢你们一直守护着我们24届，无时无刻都帮助我们。我也要特别感谢珈杏学姐。学姐挽救了我的学记生涯。
我也要感谢各位同届。谢谢你们带给我的回忆。我永远不忘你们。我爱你们！

学记，让我体验到什么是友情。学记，广大了我的世界。学记，改变了我。我爱学记！！！

Keeping my fingers crossed

2010-12-10T01:34:00.003+08:00

To be honest,I have never think of what impact it will bring to me when I've got myself at the top. The moment I reached the top,I just felt relieved because it had taken me so long to get there and I'm happy and proud of myself.

But nonetheless,the road is not end yet and there's still a long way to go. And thanks to my friends' reminder,I knew I might be on the verge of being too cocky and stumble upon myself. Things tend to happen like this. When you reach the top,you are bound to fall. I've encountered this situation before and I knew exactly what's the feeling when you fall from graces.

No doubt that there will be additional pressure on myself to maintain the exact same level I've reached. I knew well it's no easy thing to maintain it,let alone improve it. And I knew well the reason I've able to reach that level is solely my hard work and perhaps lady luck being by my side that time,not because I'm at the same level with them.

I just have this gutty feelings that there will be people watching my progress. And when I fell short,there will be some sort of cheering monster inside the person's heart. Can't avoid this. No matter who you are,there will always people who dislike you.

Well,I can only keep my fingers crossed and hope I don't stumble upon pressure since I have a tendency to crack out of pressure. Let's pray for myself that what is goin to happen in 2011 won't be running too far from what had happened in 2010.

LTC,prove to yourself that you can succeed upon pressure. =)

Persistent or Persistence?

2010-11-26T12:42:00.002+08:00

When I reflected all my previous post starting of this year, I began to wonder whether am I a persistent person or a person with persistence? I actually can't differentiate both words and went to checked out the dictationary to find out its meaning. I guess now I have some clue about its meanings.

Persistent...I guess this words always tag along with me whenever people talked about my personality. In fact everyone will very much agree with this. I am persistent,too persistent indeed. I quarrel with my non-chinese educated chinese friends because of my persistent personality. I can't suit myself in 4A early of the year because I'm very persistent that my classmates aren't the type of classmates which I could accept.

When I began to grow up(mentally) and became mature,I realised sometimes in certain case,being too persistent aint good at all. Being too persistent is like a rocking chair. It gives you something to do but never get you anywhere. Literally,it gives me something to argue for but never win me any arguement. I'm very persistent in the view that chinese people should indeed learn BC or continue to learn BC. I'm very persistent about changing class early this year because I don't think I can fit into 4A. But when I became more mature and think more open,being too persistent on these two example get me nowhere. My persistent din influence others' thinking about the issue of chinese people learning chinese. My persistent din help me to settle quick into 4A and have a happy form 4 life early of this year.

In the end,I came to realise that I can't be that persistent because it gets me nowhere. But I guess persistence is one of my personality. Persistent and persistence is kind of synonyms. But it's not. It's the way how I think that made the difference between persistent and persistence. As I said,persistence is one of my personality. For me,being persistence means you believe in certain things that it's one of your belief. People said I might be too stress and concern about studies. They said studies aint everything. They said I should become more active in other things except studies. But for me,I still believe as a teenager and student,studies is everything. I studied hard. I believe studies give me a better future. I believe studies give me self-confidence so on and so forth. I don't care about people saying my life is dull because of studies,studies and studies. You see,persistence is my personality. And this persistence benefits me. I got good results because I worked for it. And I'm happy with it.

Perhaps in certain things people might feel I'm too persistent. But for me it's not persistent,but persistence. Well,in a nutshell,I guess being able to think more maturely help me to stay out of the persistent track. But persistence is the material that make up my track. And this persistence provides a platform for me to certain success. I'm just born as a person with persistence. And that's me,TC. =)

p.s. gosh I can't believe that when I think,there is something to blog about. But perhaps during school days all I could think of is studies and studies. That's y I dunno what to blog. Erm...is this persistent or persistence? haha...xD

Confidence = Arrogance?

2010-11-25T23:33:00.002+08:00

You must be wondering where the heck I found inspiration to blog as I always said I dunno what to blog whenever someone asked me to update. Well you see, I came across an interesting conversation with a relatively not-so-closed-friend,let's put him/her as T. T said...erm...let's put this 2 person as G and L,who said I'm arrogant. Well,first thing came into my mind is ARH...I got something to blog about adi. And now,here's my update after so long.

Arrogance...to be honest I had basically put this topic aside long time ago. I thought probably I'd changed long time ago from an arrogant person to being a more humble person. Well,it seems that from the conversation I had with T,I found out there are still people who put me as an arrogant person. I'm not pissed off or anything beh song about people's comments about my personality. Everyone had their rights to comment about this. I wrote this update just to share my view of myself as an arrogant person in which G and L put as.

When I heard from T that G and L said I'm arrogant, of course first thing is I felt a bit errr...how to put tis...hurt? when I heard such comments by these two persons,in which one of them is one of my closest my friend. I began to wonder in what sense had I been arrogant lately. Then the first answer came into my mind is my recent final school examination results. The only thing that I feel I could be arrogant. To be honest,I really dunno in which other way people will feel that I'm arrogant at besides studies.

I guess I don't need to elaborate on my results since this post is written for my frens in which I think they will already got to know about my results. (I don't want people to think I'm showing off here about my results...I DIN MEAN THAT WAY!!! ==) Regarding about my results,of course I'm very much happy for myself. I guess some can noticed how cheerful I am when I'm talking. I just wonder is it because of this hapiness on my face,some people felt that I'm arrogant. First of all,I dun think I have go around everywhere telling others that I got a good results bla bla bla...like I scare no one know about my results. Second,ya I might be too excited when talking about exam results. Please do forgive me if my excitement has caused some of you to think I'm showing off and being arrogant.

As I said before,I always love to get good results because it gives me self-confidence. There's no doubt getting such a great results this time shot my self-confidence sky high. I dunno what's your view on studies and exam. But my personal view is that studies and exam give me a sense of confidence and a sense of respect from my friends in which I couldn't find it anywhere else from myself besides studies and exam. This is mainly because I knew I'm nothing good besides studies and exam. I'm bad-tempered. I'm not such good in sports like our Joshua Lee. My mouth also no need to talk adi. Well,mayb some of my frenz like Sue Fen and Sook Yi will agree that I'm more mature than last time. Guess this one is one of my pro? xD

I can't never deny that I am indeed an arrogant person...very arrogant last time. Let's give one example here. I remembered during last year sports days,I'm so confident until arrogant that I think I could take 4-5 events. One event,which is the 100m run,I'm so desperate to participate in because I think I can perform and get medal for this event. Well,there's a short story to tell here. One day,Desmond challenged me to run 100m with him. Ya,nth much to say because he won me,by kind of a big margin. AND I failed to even win a medal for this event. Well,this story taught me a lesson that even though I might be very confident in something,I need to control my confidence to a certain level in which it won't exceed the arrogance limits.

p.s. I can't believe I actually tell this story. IT'S SO EMBARASSING!!! =.="

Well,to be honest personally I had learned from this lesson. Even though I'm good in something,I have to be humble. Likewise,I'm good in studies and I really really learn to be humble. If you don't think I had become humble,at least I do feel I'm not that arrogant as last time gua?

Let's come into this question: is my confidence equal to arrogance? I can't really answer this question because everyone has a different definition of my confidence. Some may think I'm just being confident,some may think my confidence has exceed the limits in which it is equal to arrogance. What I can say is I don't hide my confidence. I won't be too humble until I shaked off my confidence. I show it. And if it makes me feel good about myself,I'm fine with the way I show my confidence to people because I don't think I'm being arrogant. I mean you see...when you are not confident,people encourage you to be confident of yourself. When you are confident,people said you are arrogant. LOLS

In a nutshell,I'm just being myself and confidence is part of me and something that I wanted. If in any way,I'm becoming too arrogant,please tell,remind and advice me. A person improved because of advises from his friends. Same goes to me. =)

I will never ever forget the fact that you turned me into a more mature monkey.

2010-10-25T22:34:00.004+08:00

Tiong Chin says:
all i know is i want to change class
·$#808080⌠ ice•xgz ⌡ ·$#C595FF♥ ·$#C0C0C0Silentz. says:
yeah
well just hoping when someone walk across the corridor will bother to look down his short friend and say hi.
you know, people are forgetful sometimes.
Tiong Chin says:
i would never forget the fact tat u n sue fen turned me into a mature monkey
xD
·$#808080⌠ ice•xgz ⌡ ·$#C595FF♥ ·$#C0C0C0Silentz. says:
ah, we know you love us, in a non-monkey friendly way.
Tiong Chin says:
LOLS
sincerely appreciated the friendship
·$#808080⌠ ice•xgz ⌡ ·$#C595FF♥ ·$#C0C0C0Silentz. says:
well, and fyi.
I don't know whether you feel in that way or not.
Don't feel bad like ditching us for wanting changing class.
we all know ming yang is sort of your soulmate in a non-gay way
we kinda talked about it last time.
Tiong Chin says:
seriously i understand the meaning for being appreciate
like even i study in a class i dun like,thr's a good thing being in this class as u n sue fen turned me into a better n mature guy
$#808080⌠ ice•xgz ⌡ ·$#C595FF♥ ·$#C0C0C0Silentz. says:
oh not exactly lah
you put in a lot effort.
serious, i bet everyone in the class see the obvious change.
we just point it out, but you are the one who carry out the whole thing.
take the credit yourself.

I thought perhaps my classmates would dislike me because I never actually able to accept 4A. But I was proved to be wrong. There is classmates who I considered as friends that really understand me. They never feel any thing bad about me because I want a class away from them which I think I would prefer. All those words above are seriously so warming.

You have been an understanding friends and I never ever forget the fact that it is you who turned me into a more mature monkey.

xD

Everything went wrong today

2010-10-12T23:13:00.003+08:00

SO,I'm back to blogger. Miss me? Or you're bored with my blog already coz it's rarely updated? Well,I don't care. =P

SO,ya. Back to boring topic. Let's talk about my final exam part I...yeah everything I had in my mind is studies,studies n more studies. Bored with this topic? I don't care. =P

SO,everything went TOTALLY WRONG today. I screw my physics paper 2 and chemistry paper 2,two of the subjects that I always can score at least an A-,but I guess no more for this exam? Everything just went wrong today. My brain wire all wrongly fixed. I can't answer both papers well. I just couldn't think at all for both papers today. Guess lacking of sleep contribute to this.

SO,a lot of people think I'm talking crap. Well,I don't crap for my studies. If I think that I can score well for exam,I will show my confidence. As for those two papers,seriously I think I did badly and I've got no confidence at all,which means I think I can't score well for those two papers.

SO,ya I was disappointed for both papers today. No point to be too disappointed since it's already over. Well,at least I learned some lesson out of this:

TC is too old to stay up late and study for examinations by burning his midnight oil. So,TC need to study consistently and not being last mins for exam.

Ya. I just couldn't take it anymore staying up late. Perhaps I realised this earlier ago. But I never think that it may cost me in my exam. And yeah now that I've learned a lesson. Seriously I need to study consistently beginning from my preparation for final exam part II. Ya...still action speaks louder than words. I need to do it before I can really improve more on my consistency level on study.

Well,some ppl might think I'm those type who study consistently. Well,mayb it's true mayb not. I just think the way I study now hasn't really benefits me from achieving the best possible results. I still think I can improve. In a nutshell,there's still room for improvement in terms of my studies. BUT guess what I want to say?

I'M NOT STRESS FOR EXAM. I ENJOY EXAM. NEVER CALL ME A STRESS PERSON.

Ya,I'm talking crap for this. But I enjoy exam is true,because I always love to get good results. It gaves me self-confidence. =D

Money

2010-08-23T22:22:00.001+08:00

Money can buy house, but cannot buy family.
Money can buy clock, but cannot buy time.
Money can buy health service, but cannot buy health.
Money can buy status, but cannot buy dignity.
Money can buy sex, but cannot buy love.

It's all gone

2010-08-16T22:23:00.004+08:00

I still remember what Amanda's mum told me once upon a time:

Open up your vision of the world and your life will be a whole lot different.

Well,when her mum told me that time,I wasn't really bother to understand what it actually means. Perhaps the little-bit-matured-TC can understand what it's about now.

It seems near impossible to relate that quotes to my life. As many people may know,I dedicated my life to studies. Reason? I think being good in studies will bring me friends and respect from them. It's childish to think that way. Well,right till now I'm still childish to think that way. Getting good results bring me a sense of honour. It makes me feel good about myself.

Ya it's true. So what being good in studies? It doesn't guarantee you a good life when you step into the society to work. To make me look more childish,it doesn't guarantee you friends and respect from them as well. Mayb it does,but without a good personality,even getting a good results doesn't guarantee respect from others.

I ought to agree with those people saying my life is dull...very dull indeed. There's people giving the "you're a nuts" look as I always study. Even Sook Yi's words kept appearing in my mind now: You're abnormal.

I miss out a lot of things in my teenage years. I'm nothing good besides study. I don't know how to play music instrument. I don't know how to swim(I know know breatstroke). I doesn't achieven anything besides study in my life so far.

When I was a primary students,I wasn't that kind of student which always study. My life during primary was so wasted. I regreted it so much. It's all my fault. Not showing interest in everything around me. Up to secondary,I'm pretty much the same person during form one. But when it came to form two,I changed. All I ever think in my life is study,study and study. And this thinking grew even stronger during form three. PMR. I put a lot of pressure on myself wanting to achieve straight As in PMR. Study like a mad bull dog and getting those 8As. Perhaps it doesn't feel great at all in achieving this. I mean,no offence to others. I dare to say I put in a whole lot more of effort than many people. And what it turnt out was even though those people put lesser effort than me they also achieve the same as what I achieved. And you see,these people enjoy their form three life a whole lot more than me while I was trying my very best to achieve straight As for PMR during my form three life.

Sigh,I wished so much I have enjoy my life before this a whole lot more better than what I did. Well,when you're in form four,that chance won't happen that frequently. The time for childhood fun is nearly over. SPM...a platform for you to enter the labour world and earn a living. Can I told myself it's still early during form four and I still can enjoy before SPM? It would be stupid to think like that now. Form 4 is not a honeymoon year. I agreed with teachers. I must work hard to have a good base to survive during form 5 and SPM.

It's all gone. The chance to have a fun childhood. So much regretted. Mayb that's just me. A person who dunno enjoy the world and my life.

Last but not least to say,I would cherish every moment that I could have fun now and later in my remaining secondary life. Althought I might not be able to change from a student who thinks study is everything to a teenager who thinks enjoying life is also important,I really hope my remaining teenage life can be eventful and fun.

2010-07-28T00:13:00.002+08:00

Seeing you is a blessings
Your pleasant looks
Your sweet smile
How could I not fall for you

Asking myself not to fall for you
Even when my heart is telling otherwise
The struggle within my heart
Is pretty hard to take

Knowing it doesn't make sense
To be sinking in this feeling
I knew I got to look forward to my life
I got to move on

(Random) I love this song...=)

2010-07-07T22:42:00.000+08:00

“都是你”

誰改變了我的世界
沒有方向沒有日夜
我看著天這一刻在想你
是否會對我一樣思念

你曾說我們有一個夢
等到哪天我們來實現
我望著天在心中默默唸
下一秒你出現在眼前

想念的新裝滿的都是你
我的鋼琴彈奏的都是你
我的日記寫滿的都是你的名
才發現又另一個黎明

誰改變了我的世界
沒有方向沒有日夜
我看著天這一刻在想你
是否會對我一樣思念

你曾說我們有一個夢
等到哪天我們來實現
我望著天在心中默默唸
下一秒你出現在眼前

想念的新裝滿的都是你
我的鋼琴彈奏的都是你
我的日記寫滿的都是你的名
才發現又另一個黎明

想念的新裝滿的都是你
我的鋼琴彈奏的都是你
我的日記寫滿的都是你的名
才發現又另一個黎明

我的日記寫滿的都是你的名
才發現又是一個黎明
這是我對你愛的累積

Something new ? :P

2010-07-01T22:59:00.003+08:00

Seriously , its such a relief not to read your blog in blue.
I mean physically blueee :)
And it actually makes me feel blue too D:

But nevermind , there's something new here :P

Skies are blue. ;)
Pinafores are striking blue.
But I'm not buee . :P
Still , I know your favorite colour is B-L-U-E.

Waiting for love =)

2010-06-29T23:48:00.006+08:00

Before I start to type my post,an apology to my friend for not updating so long. Well,I updated now because I found the urge to blog. Very hard to find you know? xD

Let's stop the bullshit and begin my post: (how to begin...thinking)

After such a long time ignoring my feelings for her as I knew well I couldn't possibly further develop my feelings for her for my own good,I still found that only she could capture my heart. The feelings she gave me is just different from other girl. =) The feeling of having a crush on a girl. I tried to find this feeling somewhere else from some other girl,but I can't find it. Everytime during tuition when she walked into the class,my heart will felt nervous. That kind of feeling is what I think I'm having a crush on her.

But I guess the time will come when I had another chance to have another relationship, maybe a different girl that time. Although probably and very likely that I will not have that in my current time as I'm facing form 4,form 5 and then SPM. I won't hide what I feel inside my heart,no I'm not desperate for relationship,but I am indeed waiting for it to circulate around my life again. =)

(L) Yang Bao Bei

2010-06-03T22:43:00.002+08:00

GOSH...This book's author is a 16 years old sweet girl!!! Can guess what? She's a Malaysian and a student of SMK Datuk Lokman. =O Her book is a love novel,entitled Love Has Come in english. Even if I know nothing about her besides that I knew she was a writer in just 16 years old,I can sense that I'm goin to go crazy for her for some time.
She's very cute!!! MUAHAHAHA

Loving 4A

2010-05-27T01:13:00.005+08:00

Well,just a short update when I'm resting from playing with protons and electrons. LOLS

I guess I had finally managed to find a balance in my relationship with my old buddy and my new class. You see,I'm living in a class which almost full of girls,my class got only 6 guys. Not really comfortable in 4A at the start of this year because I've got some negative thoughts about my new class and I'm too reluctant to mix with new person instead of sticking with my old buddy. But I guess time is the solution for everything. I actually feel very much fresh mixing with person which I've never been in the same class with be4!!! HAHA...ya...I was just too stubborn on the matter of which I would very much prefer to be same class with my old buddy.

They are right. The problem is not whether they wan to mix with me or not,it's whether I want to mix with them or not. I'm finding it settled living in 4A. =)

BUT thr's bad being in 4A for me. Because Sook Yi and Sue Fen kept saying I'm to gay. WT TOOOT. It's all because of living in 4A which almost full of girls that caused me to become gaylish. YOUR GIRLS' FAULTS. LOLS xD

Forever in my heart

2010-05-24T00:03:00.003+08:00

23 of May has passed.
2 years has officially over.
Everything that happened between us in this two years
I'll sealed it somewhere in my heart
Deep inside my heart
And never unseal it anymore
As this marks a new era between our friendship
HELLO MY FRIENDS
=)

Never is never

2010-05-23T01:27:00.003+08:00

I always told my fren never to say never,but sometimes you just have to eat back your words.

From 23.5.08 to 23.5.10,in just two years time,we had becomes from frenz to couple back to frenz.
We had went through a lot of things.

You:
fall in love > giving up > got together > broke up > ignored > friends

Me:
Frenz > One-sided love from you > accepted your love and got together > broke up > ignored > frenz

From accidentally saw you in Jusco
Started to sms with you
Went through 10 May 2008 owing you a M & M chocolate for your birthday
Hurting you when I told Amanda that I felt annoying that you keep smsed me
Your confession to me,telling everything out to me
To we started to take one step further in our relationship
Went to eat together after koko for two weeks
Then you said you're giving up
To your 2009 birthday,listening to your piano playing,having a memorable b'day party not only to you but to myself
I started to accept ur love
Got together
Fall for you during Van's b'day party
Went to Leisure Mall for our only movie 17 again
Goin through 4 exams together
Losing my 1st kiss
Calling you almost every single nights talking like nobody business
Finished PMR together,days and nights with your accompany
Our relationship started to go downhill
Went to Genting together having our last sweet memories together
Broke up on Halloween
Argue
We started to go through this tough time
And FINALLY we became frenz back again,no more ill feelings to each other
=)

We change each other
We cried for each other
We went through every single moment together,sweet and bitter,happy and sad
All in 2 years time

It's been a cycle,started 23 of May and ended on 23 of May. Although we never go far,I'm glad it back to square one.

I will never able to forget everything in this 2 years,never in my life.

23rd of May,we both made it memorable.

And for the last time,I loved you.

Short and Random

2010-05-10T22:10:00.003+08:00

First of all,let me wish Leong Sue Fen HAPPY BIRTHDAY on my blog.

Gosh...she's onlining but I dun have the guts to talk to her.

Goin to school it's getting more and more meaningless.

No offence to Sook Yi but your post about Sue Fen's b'day is like so so to me only? But I think ur partner will appreciate it eh?

Class photo session 2day was good. Proudly to announce 4A guys post like James Bond 2day. xD
for me,James Bok...xD

Exam 7 days to go!!!

yup...exam 7 days to go...back to study...bye

Random

2010-05-05T21:49:00.004+08:00

I realised when I think of studies it really freaks me out. The world feels so much wonderful whenever I just forgot about studies(in which pauline always ask me to) for a moment...ya...for a moment...when I'm going to bed. Guess probably it's because I don't feel nice with my class,so I guess it's no surprise that school and studies freak me out recently.

I also realised whenever I think of the fact that I lost my gang as my classmates,how suffering am I in almost every aspect in my life. Studies,friendship,human relationship and etc. Days passed without joys as I dun feel joyful with my current life. I had come to a conclusion the reason for all of these is because I lost the familiar faces in my life. How I wish I can just turn back in time,back to once wonderful time.

Ya,frankly I also realised if I keep talking about how unhappy is my life,people will be bored to read the same stories over and over again. And I would be emo again for stupid reason.

Let's talk about my suffering to strike a balance between co-curiculum and studies. I just dunno how to get a balance between both of that. I decided to go to the jamboree since it contains 17 koko marks but I need to pay a price for that. Jamboree starts 13 May to 15/16 May. And mid-term starts 17 May...which means I probably lost about 3 or 4 days chance to study for mid-term. And then comes another camp which the pengakap teachers asked me to join. The dunno-wat-lencana-ekspedisi-camp,which falls on 8 and 9 May. The teachers hope that I really can join the camp. It does bring me benefits as I can learn more thing and get more lencana for pengakap. But seriously,I'm already out of time to study for mid-term and I guess it's too late to do all those stuff now that I'm already 16 years old and facing a hectic SPM life. So,forgot about the camp on 8 to 9 May. Studies come 1st for me. lol

How proud am I to bring some new dimension for our school pengakap. One could imagine how sucky is our school pengakap be4 this year. People often ponteng or complain coming to pengakap is a waste of time. It's because our school pengakap is not active at all. Even the basic lencana exam our school also dun have. Feeling awkful for our school pengakap,I decided to give some suggestion to teacher that we start those exam this year. And I guess it started quite well. At least I guess pengakap aint that dull anymore with the introduction of those lencana exam. Hopefully,the pengakap member will be active with the activities that the AJK carry on.

Leaving the school matter,let me talk about the xue ji aka student reporter. Sorry to all the xue ge n xue jie but I still dun feel enjoy with the outdoor activities xue ji had. Mayb it's because of my studies or mayb it's because I'm not good at socialising or mayb becoz I dun feel good to get to know so many new frenz in my life in such a short time. But anyway,I will stay on no worry. AND! (it's kinda late to update about that) I got one of my article posted on the newspaper!!! Well,I really din think that will happen actually. Coz in order to get the xue ji certificate,one needs to send at least one article to xue ji guan huai and get two articles posted on the sin chew da du hui columm(simply spell). So I simply send one article to xue ji guan huai to start my interest in writing article for my xue ji. And it posted. YAY! lol...I wrote about Michael Schumacher. The theme is how he fare since rejoining F1.

To teenage's love problem. gosh,I feel I'm really stupid at how I treat my feeling to her. I actually scare of someone I think I like/get attracted to. She like a dark angel for me(so old style rite?). Dark symbolise I scare and angel symbolise that how pretty she is for me. And thx to my fren,I think she knew I like/get attracted to her,which makes me even scare/shy to see her. I just can't help it. It feels so awkful whenever I see her in tuition. Jeff said people happy to see hot chicks,but I scare to see pretty girl. How weird I am? =O

Let me see anything more to talk?...I guess tat's all I could talk. Guess this post will be enuf to satisfy my readers rite(ceh...talk like I had a big fan base on my blog only)?

Well,ming,I updated...PUAS!? haha

tata

Be sure simple really means simple

2010-04-27T00:35:00.003+08:00

I realised more and more the need to live a simple life. Simple life leads to hapiness. It really does. As a city people,we don't feel happy because we always want more. We're greedy in our life that we don't have enough of the thing we want in our life. We use all of our time to chase for these things: money and success which a typical city person will want the most.

I'm born in the city and I'm no different compared to a typical city people. I'm kia shu(scare to lose) and it really stress me out. Like Ker Ikr said,she feels so stress sitting near me because I always have at least a book by my side to study. Me too having this feeling. But I guess I managed to turn this feeling into a sense of motivation to work hard in my studies,which I lost since last year. I don't wish to over-feel to compete with people but to use those hardworking people as a role model of mine and move along in this competitive city life.

I'm shocked when one person ask me do have I entertainment cause I seem so hardworking for her. Come on...it's nonsense to think that I studied 24/7 without any entertainment. =.= My life is a bit more complicated than just studying...yeah just a bit more. lol...do homework,onlining,watch sports,sleeping(afternoon nap)...and if got time of coz I will study. BUT you see,my life aint all about study and succeed in exam.

I mean of course studies remain the priority in my life. And I always feel good when I do well in exam. Aint it normal? Maybe I do put myself in so much pressure,but as long as I'm doing what I like,isn't it that's the simplest life of my own? Instead of joining that society,that activity etc making me busy to do the thing I feel I want to do the most,which is study.

People might say I'm crazy because my life is so dull. Well,Isn't it dull kinda related to simple?

Well,I admited there's a lot of bs up thr. Just to write something out for no apparent reason.

No matter what,life goes on.

Off to study bio =P

Be patient

2010-04-25T22:24:00.003+08:00

I felt so jealous seeing so many couples around. It just added more desperation in myself that I want a relationship as well...the desperation of wanting to be love by someone. Shitty hormone effect I guess.

But I guess what she said is true. Desperation for love will do you no good. Just have to bear with it and wait for the right time.

Once it strikes you,you might tag along with it

Well,kinda true from her. For me,

Once it strikes you,you WILL tag along with it.

This is so true....muahahaha!

p.s. sorry for taking ur quotes and modify one from it for myself...xD

HATE IT...FUCK MY LIFE

2010-04-14T22:32:00.003+08:00

Yeah,basically I hate almost everything in my life now.

Hate people talk who like as if he/she is the best person in the world
Hate people who act so fake,one minute they can depreciate you,the other second they will be good with you
Hate people who shows no respect to teacher
Hate that I can't get what I want
Hate the fact I knew I would enjoy form 4's life very much IF only for the fact that my 3 best peeps is still with me
Hate the feeling that I don't feel move on in form 4's life with 4 Angsana
Hate that I lost the motivation to study because I lost my 3 best peeps
Hate that when I saw my 3 best peeps happily together in other class while I'm all alone in the class which I dislikes to live with
Hate the feeling that my 3 best peeps are like almost invinsible in my life
Hate that I don't enjoy living my life at all

FUCK FORM 4 LIFE
FUCK 4 ANGSANA
FUCK MY LIFE!!!

2010-04-10T20:42:00.002+08:00

离开了
心灵空虚了
欲望变得强
欲望很无奈
好渴望被填补
=(((

What all these feelings mean?

2010-04-04T12:12:00.002+08:00

2day I smiled to her and she grinned back me a smile. My heartbeat increased

2 weeks ago,she stand besides me around 10 minutes and I don't even dare to look at her.

Around 1 month ago,she sit besides me for 2 classes and I felt so empty.

In short,her presence makes me feel nervous/uncomfortable/excited.

What does all these feelings mean?

Jeff: I think you like or probably love her adi.

Well,I hope I like her just because she's too pretty for me.

p.s. Suffering from having the feeling of love to someone who is not even close to you. =(((

Sorry I'm wrong

2010-04-03T17:54:00.003+08:00

I dunno what to say but after reading your post I understood n knew I'm wrong.

SORRY. =(

Mood's going on a roller coaster ride

2010-03-27T17:53:00.004+08:00

I just feel it's so tough to manage my feeling nowadays. My mood just going on a roller coaster ride.

I guess I'm able to manage my feelings now better than early of the year. But it's so tired coz it's so tough.

I guess this is what people means by I'm going through and learning the part and parcel of growing up. lol

It's just frustrating

2010-03-27T17:34:00.003+08:00

Mood swings. I just can't help it. I miss my old gang so much. It's just so frustrating to see some of my classmates have their own gang but I don't have.

Some people said it's my own fault that I don't choose to mix with my new classmates at the begining. Yes,it's my problem that I dun like to mix with some of my classmates. No offence here but when those ppl said it's my problem,I just want u all to know that u all are lucky to have ur own gang. U all are confident to say it's my problem that I dun mix with new ppl because you all dun feel the way I feel. All I want to say is I don't get the comfortable feeling from my new class that I had with my old gang. Not that I dun wan to mix with them. Just I don't feel comfortable like how I feel with my old gang.

But I'm glad that one particular classmate being neutral on my condition and concern about my feeling. That person is Sook Yi. I dunno whether you really did that anot but I just felt that. So,I guess I should say thank you to the good person? =D

Loving it

2010-03-26T00:22:00.003+08:00

I always said that I don't like la la mui. But I guess I had like one la la girl. LOLS

ok...not those kua cheong type la la girl. But still for me she's la la.

AND I LIKE HER! =O

Hey guys. Not to be mistaken. I'm not fallen in love with anyone. Like Sook Yi(1st time I mention her in my blog) said,I'm just wavy. And I enjoy it. LOLS

U see,loving someone who dun love me is kinda suffering.
So,I much more prefer to like MANY GIRLS. wtf...ahaha!

Some fren was like if i like someone,why dun i just tell them n try to date them?
well,my response will be: I'm not ready for any relationship.

p.s. i'm not flirty coz i dun flirt with girls.
p.s. i know tis one so random suddenly. just to remind u guys i'm not a flirty guy coz i dun have flirty blood running inside my blood.

OH! not to forget.
U see,Jeff said every guy must be horny.
reason? IF UR DAD IS NOT HORNY,YOU WON'T BE BORN.
JEFF ROCKS WTH

Just touched

2010-03-26T00:18:00.003+08:00

I think I had said these many times last time,regardless of whatever the situation is. But I guess there's a need for me to think it again...

I'm touched by your confession and THANK YOU AND SORRY FOR EVERYTHING.

2010-03-16T04:40:00.000+08:00

Walking down the memory lane
All the joys and sorrows
I still remember deep inside my heart
How wonderful it was

All the happiness
I shall keep inside my heart
Together with the unhappy one
As this is what make the past wonderful

As time pass by
It's still that wonderful
Even when I'm unhappy
It brings a smile back to my face

=)

2010-03-16T03:54:00.003+08:00

I've always wanted to tell you
You gave me hapiness beyond belief
Say that you will be forever by my side

Let's just be together and watch time pass by
I just love you,loving you
With sorrow,with joy,with you even ordinary is meaningful
Sweet and comfortable,that kind of feeling is you

Together as time pass by
Please remember how much I love you

I place all my hapiness on your hands
Oh I just love you,loving you
I want us to be together

Just unbelieveable

2010-03-13T23:17:00.002+08:00

I just can't believe it myself. Everything had changed between us less than one year. I never ever expect what is happening between both of us now.

Reflecting the past,it's just hard to believe the past you and the current you are actually the same person. (still I can't believe it. =O)

You're just not the same person when I first met you anymore. =(((

Weird Dreams

2010-03-10T19:02:00.003+08:00

Just woke up from a dream. Dream of slapping a female classmates of mine.

I did actually slapped a female classmates of mine during standard 6. And that girl is my best female frenz since kindergarden somemore. But she eventually forgive me on the day I slapped her itself and we remained good frenz till now.

I wonder will it happen to me and her if I really slap her???

In The Past

2010-03-09T22:31:00.002+08:00

I am all alone now
My life feels so empty without the familiar faces
Countless days
Together we have weathered the storms
Together we laughed like innocent children
Together we reached for our dreams
Now all of those things are dead and gone forever
Like shattered pieces of glass

Written by TC
Edited by Michelle
=)

Laughing more than focusing during class wth

2010-03-06T23:38:00.004+08:00

SO(umass's shout wth)...2day we had our bio class. wasn't that jam-packed n donald has his time to make some joke.

So he was talking bout reproduction of amoeba sp. amoeba reproduce by binary bission under favourable conditions. those conditions are:

1) presence of food

2) presence of oxygen

3) high humidity

4) low temperature

5) neutral pH

6) low intensity of light

amoeba is an animal cell. same goes to human but human it's a complex organisms. continue reading i bet u will laugh like mad if u can imagine u're in the class.

1) human needs food to reproduce so sperm cells have energy to swim

2) human needs oxygen during sexual intercourse. (obviously)

3) high humidity...better still on the air-cond during sexual intercourse( 1st dirty jokes)

4) low temperature(almost same like 3)

5) neutral ph because sperm cell will die if it's not neutral

6) MOST IMPORTANT of all conditions...low intensity of light...boy switch off the light pls...

one guy switch off the light. then he said:

ahhh...just nice(imagine the classroom has low intensity of light)...suitable light intensity for sexual intercourse

wth i tell u guys...the whole class laugh like mad. this jokes above are so dirty that it create imagination in my mind(well i'm a hamsup fella wth).

thr's 1 more minor jokes here which also make me laugh:

donald: exchange of gas occurs in frog's skin because frog's skin is moisture which is suitable for diffusion of gases. u guys try to take a frog n wipe away its mucus on it's body. the frog will have problem carrying respiration. when the frog is suffering n goin to die,the frog will struggle n SHOWS MIDDLE FINGLE TO YOU.

see...frog really likes to show middle finger to ppl...Kurang ajar rite? AHAHAHAHA

Her presence makes my heart beat so fast

2010-03-06T17:49:00.002+08:00

I had never been that close with her be4. Until today during sejarah class. Firstly,she asked my fren got seat on her right side anot and my fren replied no. So,she went to find other seat. Just the moment she wanted to walk away,she saw there's an empty seat on my left. She asked me got people sit anot. Suddenly I was like completely went blank. I couldn't speak out and I shaked my head to indicate to her no. And then she sit next to me. OMG

Din talk to her during the class. But heard her voice when her elbow accidentally knocked my hand. Her voice kinda cute. lols

Finish sejarah class. Off to M maths class. again she sit next to me. This time on my right. Have a little discussion with her bout some maths questions. I guess first time I talked to her. xD

Overcome yourself

2010-03-02T23:14:00.002+08:00

I done my best

Although it's not good enough

But I overcome myself

Got no.4 for high jump. Not to be too disappointed with that because in the top 5 I'm the only form 4 guy. And I improved my personal best from 1.35m to 1.40m...xD

262

2010-02-28T17:23:00.002+08:00

I din expect I would walk into that place at all. But coincidentally,I was drop on the other side of that place and I had to walked into that place to get to the other side where my dad would pick me there. It was the first time I walked into that place since the one and only outing I had with her during that particular time.

Walked into that place,I was so blur because I think I only went into this place once. But then,I
saw the food court where I had my lunch with her during that outing. Continue walking I was able to recognize which way to walk now. Walk walk walk...reached the cinema where I had also one and only movie with her during that particular time. Not to forget the big BR sign of course. Those memory around the cinema and BR are sweet and bitter.

Reached the place where my dad would pick me up. Strong wind is blowing. Wish that the wind can blow away all those bitter feeling away and leave only the sweet inside my heart.

Wonderland that isn't wonderful anymore

2010-02-22T21:25:00.002+08:00

The reality is always harsh

When I couldn't take it,I choose to be in my wonderland

But I just can't help that my wonderland isn't that wonderful anymore

How I wish I could back in time

Back to the place where everything was so wonderful

The past that won't repeat again. =(

CNY =)

2010-02-16T20:37:00.002+08:00

CNY has passed,but that doesn't mean the spirit is over. We are in the mood to eat,collect angpaus n tv-ing rite guys n girls? xD

So overall,my CNY is nothing more than eating. Can't bear it. My aunt cook like at least 5 dishes per meal and I eat like at least 2 small bowl of rice per meal. Well,my stomach also shouting to me saying: stop stuffing food inside me wth. xD

Talking bout angpaus. Din collect alot. And I dun even know how many money I gt. When I received angpau,I din even check n gave to my mum asking her to keep it. Well,why would I check how many money I gt since I can always get money from my mum whenever I want?

A lot of shows during CNY. But mostly shown be4. It's just I never watch be4. In chinese show,well it's all bout mahjong. Nth new 1...==. Then eng show,ahaha...watch 2 James Bond show...1 is The World Is Not Enough n 2 is GoldenEye. Will be watching a 3 1 which is Tomorrow Never Dies later on 11p.m. =) I wish I am James Bond. =)

I guess tat's all for this post. Stay tune.

p.s. trying my very best to revive my blog. Hope you u all can support my blog...muahaha

Craziest party I ever attend.

2010-02-13T03:35:00.002+08:00

Thanks so much to Sanjivyen for inviting me to your sweet 16 birthday party. =)

I never dance in front of anyone before. It all happened in his party.

Awesome party. xD

Just not the same anymore =(

2010-02-13T03:10:00.002+08:00

It's hard to build a close relationship with someone who is just your normal fren. I guess it's even harder to maintain the once close relationship with your best fren now.

Once upon a time(I dunno since when it was the last time I used this xD),they're with me. But now I'm seperated with them. And things aren't just going to be the same anymore.

I'm being left out by them. You can barely find a person that walk with me to canteen during recess.

I'm tired of those sarcastism showed by you guys. It feels so annoying. It just make me feel you guys are rejecting me.

The wall that builded between me and you guys because of different class do no harm to you guys but only me. Because I'm the only one left out alone in a different class.

They just don't care about me =(

2010-02-13T02:25:00.003+08:00

Well,since everyone is begging me to update my blog,I guess I'll just give them a treat n this blog another emo post.

I tried. I've tried so hard.

Yeah I know. I was wrong to not even accept my new classmates after being sorted out in the same class with them. And ok,like what everyone adviced me,I tried to suit myself with my classmates. Mix with them and try to socialise with them. But so far it doesn't appear to me that things are going to be better. Mayb it did get better. But only a little. Very little.

For me,making the 1st step to mix with them was seriously very hard. It feels like they just don't care about me unless I made the 1st step to mix with them. This feeling sucks to the max.
Eventhough I tried to mix with them,I feel I don't belong to them. It's like they accepting me because I'm a very pity and isolated person in the class.

I din mean to criticise you all in this post. I just want to tell that this is how I felt when being isolated in the class.

I guess for you guys,I was wrong in not seeing this in a positive way that you all are trying to accept me. But the moment being isolated in the class made me feel so emo.

Nonetheless,I still got to hang on in the class. I will and have to no matter what.

I guess I just need to try harder.

Bad way to welcome back my new school term

2010-01-04T19:46:00.003+08:00

I can't believe how 'lucky' I am to be placed in 4A. Satisfied with this class? NO. I made my feelings and point clear that I'm not satisfied with the class I placed at. It's just simply because I'm the only one left out in my gang(Ming,Sean and Teo all in B class),and I can't accept this. We passed through PMR year with great success and I would certainly like and want to continue staying with them till SPM.

Some ppl might say I'm very unfriendly because why can't I make new close friends with others? Ya...I'm not ready to make new close friends. Certainly I feel comfortable staying with my gang because I'm not gonna risk anything for SPM. I feel it's the best for me to stay with them and I pray to God that the school will allow my permission to switch class to 4B.

Ups and Downs

2010-01-02T00:13:00.001+08:00

Well,it's 2010 already. A whole new year begins today. For me,everything back to square one,everything starts from zero. No matter what's happened in the past.

To reflect back on 2009,well the title says it all. (thinking what to write......) For me,2009 was like I went through almost everything in life. 2009 was completely different from all the years that I went through. During this year,I've lost myself. First, thanks to the pressure of having to face so many exams. From the begining of 2009,I've constantly putting pressure on myself to live up to my 2009 main resolutions,that is to score straight As for PMR. Well,billioon of thanks to God,lady luck,my family,teachers and friends,I managed to do just that. Well,honestly I'm not really proud of this success. It is this PMR that made me lost myself,my confidence,my hapiness and so on. I guess because of this PMR,I din really get to really enjoy my life this year. Everyone's been saying I'm putting unnecessary pressure on myself causing me to lose the fun of enjoying life. Well,I think it's just a little too hard for me to enjoy my life with the pressure of having to do well in exam in the back of my mind. And yes,I think besides my family and my friends,my life is all about exam as a student rite now.

(thinking what more to write) Well,thx to HER,for the later part of 2009,my mental strength has improve so much. I feel thankful,because I managed to change one of my weakness into one of my strength. I hope this can help me for SPM and for the rest of my life. Thanks for everything. =)

Well,during 2009,I doubt of myself in so many things. Am I really just a person who knows nth in life except exam? Do I have attitude problems in treating certain things? Can I be a independent person in my life? I guess going into 2010,I just have to leave all these doubts behind and start a brand new year.I guess it's time to talk some good memories in 2009. Well,reflect back 2009,although it's such a suffering year for me,thr's still some good memories to reflect. How memorable is this to suffer this year with all the bunch of my frens? We shared laughter in the class,we rushed to tuition together,we discussed about studies in a gang,we argued because of different opinions,we angry at each other n forgive each other,we enjoyed life together after PMR and etc. I guess all these just help us to understand each other better(whether in a good or bad way). Honestly,ladies and gentlemen,THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR EVERYTHING AND ANYTHING. lols.

And now,let's begin 2010 together(again...of coz...lame) and may each and everyone of us have another memorable years like 2009!!!

Tarikh pengumuman keputusan PMR 2009

2009-12-17T17:00:00.001+08:00

Keputusan PMR diumumkan 24 Disember

17/12/2009 1:45pm

KUALA LUMPUR 17 Dis. - Keputusan peperiksaan Penilaian Menengah Rendah (PMR) 2009 akan diumumkan pada 24 Disember ini, kata Ketua Pengarah Pelajaran Datuk Alimuddin Mohd Dom dalam satu kenyataan hari ini.

Katanya, calon-calon boleh mendapatkan keputusan dari sekolah masing-masing mulai pukul 10 pagi pada hari berkenaan, manakala calon persendirian akan mendapat keputusan masing-masing menerusi pos.

Seramai 475,182 calon mendaftar untuk menduduki peperiksaan tersebut. - Bernama

Skin Irritation

2009-12-12T00:29:00.003+08:00

1st of all,this post's language will be damn cacated n informal. hope u understand xD

so,2day my dad bought me to a relative's house makan lunch. be4 i get into the story,let me describe the house 1st. it's my relative's new house n they hosted an open house. the house is a bangalo...triple story(see voca cacated)...gt swimming pool...design not tat nice in my eyes. OK...enuf of bs. let's begin the story.

so during the time i took my lunch,i felt skin irritation on my chest n neck. my aunt asked me why so red 1...i pun cakap nth n go garu garu it. at 1st i thought is becoz my shirt tat cause skin irritation...but tat shirt i've been wearing since last year CNY. so,prediction not acceptable.

went home...the irritation went through my whole upper body. i keep garu garu it until it's RED HOT(means it's f-ing gatal). my dad asked me go sleep a while 1st see will be better or not...but of coz no la.

so at night,mum brought me go jumpa doktor la. doktor cakap lu sakit mana(i swear he said tat to me),so i pun cakap sakit (ahem)...ceh...jkjk. told him i felt skin irritation. so he asked me to show my red hot sexy body...ahaha. then he told me 90% is because sea food,i said i din eat much but he said eat a bit also can be serious,jadi saya pun speechless. n guess wat's next? he said......HE'S GONNA TAKE INJECTION ON MY BUTT AKA MY ASS.

tell u seriously...WTF IT'S SO F-ING PAIN MF.

so finished injection,ambil ubat,balik kampung.

p.s. i told u it's f-ing informal n the language is cacated kan?
p.s. hope u guys understand.

BB

这段时间还是得过的 =）

2009-12-10T23:58:00.003+08:00

时间是帮得上忙，可是也是一种折磨。

因为时间会不断地让回忆重现。

心是无法承受的。

但无论如何，这段时间, 还是得过的。

p.s. thx a lot for the consolation. xD

Finally I work my lazy ass out

2009-12-08T10:30:00.002+08:00

The whole holidays I have been talking to exercise myself up so that I could be in the best shape for next year basketball tournament. But what I din expect is I only started all these TODAY!!!

It's hard to challenge my laziness really. My dad work up at 7 morning everyday to jog at Pandan Lake Club,a challenge for me to follow suit as I need to wake up at 7,which is a bit unchallengeable for a student who is enjoying his hols. Morever,I've been sleeping late playing computer games. So,obviously it's very hard to work my lazy ass out.

It was also a surprise that I managed to wake up at 7 today because I played computer games till 2a.m. today,plus I've having problems to sleep easily lately because my mind is distracted,so I guess I slept around 3 something today. But nevertheless,I WOKE UP. ==

So,I went to wash my face be4 out to PLC. Before we(my dad and I) went,I have problem picking a shoe to jog. I dun have a jogging shoe,so without the fear of shamefulness,I wore my school shoe to jog there.

Well,it's pointless to eloborate what I did besides jogging thr. So,I will summarize it:

1st round,walked all the way with dad(my dad walked quite fast too ==). Saw 1 kid fall down with his bike becoz of wet grass.
2nd round,ran 1/2 be4 slowing down to walk,now I realised how much more work need to be done to be fit...after the run,never run again and I just walked all the time I jogged thr.
3rd round,walked lo...BUT I realised 1 old fella...around in his 60s...have been running nonstop since I started to jog. That old fella is f-ing fit...omg.

Well,I guess that's all. I seriously hope I can continue what I did 2day morning consistently coz consisten work need to done in order to get really fit.

p.s. so random this post eh?

BB

How romantic are you quiz? I gt 64% wtf

2009-12-08T00:54:00.003+08:00

You appear to have a well-balanced romantic self. While you may get flutters in your stomach when you meet someone you are very attracted to, you do not let your romantic-self entirely dictate how you proceed. You will ask yourself if there is a chance this relationship will work before allowing yourself to fall in love. Even if you feel a romantic connection is viable from a practical sense, you will not just allow yourself to be swept away.

You do not have many illusions about love. While you may feel a very deep attachment to someone, you know love rarely conquers all. You know successful relationships take work and compromise and a desire by those involved to make their relationship work. Candlelight dinners and words of endless love may be nice, but they don't pay the bills or get the dishes washed.

The middle ground on the romanticism scale is neither entirely safe nor entirely lackluster. However it does not carry the weight of a romantic failure based upon being swooped off your feet. Nor is the middle ground so devoid of romanticism that you feel like you are living with a sibling. Also, there is quite a bit of evidence that with your outlook on romanticism your relationship has a very good chance of succeeding.

Smile and Laugh

2009-12-07T22:00:00.002+08:00

Why I din think of this?

I din realise that how effective a smile and a laugh can actually cure sorrowness. I guess it's the best besides time. xD

I did smile and laugh though. But I'm just smiling and laughing how naive I am. =(

Guess I have to really learn how to smile and laugh...OH! Talking about SMILE and LAUGH...I suddenly miss Gwen! T_T

爱谁？

2009-12-07T21:13:00.002+08:00

爱自己，却会变得自私。
爱你所爱的人，却会对自己残酷。

在这种情况，你会选择爱谁？

当天真遇上残酷

2009-12-07T18:50:00.002+08:00

一个天真的人，会觉得他所生活的世界是如此的美好。但他却没想到，当他遇上某件残酷的事情时，他会如此地不堪一击。如果没有一颗坚强的心，他根本无法能够接受那残酷的事情所带来的伤痛。

无可否认，时间是最好的医生。时间能治疗所有的创伤。但有没有想过，时间并不能在最需要的时候为极度受伤的心灵治疗。时间所施的是慢性治疗，只有随着岁月的流逝，才能够真正地完全治疗好那受伤的心灵。

当天真的人无法逞受那伤痛时，他会很渴望地寻找最快速的疗方，以治疗他那粹落的心。那疗方是天真的疗方。虽知那是行不通的，但他已别无选择，为求的只是能捱过那难过的关。其他的人会觉得他很傻或很执著，但他却是情势所逼的。

怀念

2009-12-07T16:32:00.004+08:00

今天不知道为什么，身体觉得很沉重，心情觉得很郁闷，于是便决定去骑骑脚踏车。原本只是想到家外疏疏筋骨，但没想到我却去寻找了一些消失已久的回忆。

骑到学校附近的一些地方，那些消失已久的回忆渐渐浮现在脑海里。学校放学时学生们经常走的走廊、SBU那里的T字路、九里香、公园......这些地方曾发生过似普通的事，现在却变成让我极度怀念的回忆。

骑到累后，便决定到那公园去歇一会儿。我记得这里曾发生过许多事情，但脑子里却对这边最陌生。可是久而久之，怀念的心情却带动着脑子慢慢地找回那些回忆。真的好怀念噢！

这时雨却下了起来。不知到为何我并没有意志要赶快骑回家，明知在下着雨，却还慢吞吞地。怎知雨却没下大。在我缓慢的速度一直到家的路途中，雨势还是一样地没变大。

这场小雨代表什么呢？是要我清醒还是为我哭泣？或许我想太多了吧！这只不过是一场雨啊！但它却为我的心情带来一些惆怅感。

无奈

2009-12-05T03:49:00.004+08:00

心中有难愈的伤痕，

觉得很无奈。

心中有种无法自拔的痛，

觉得很无奈。

无法忘掉那似美好却又伤心的回忆，

觉得很无奈。

独自一人沉落在那伤痛的心灵，

觉得很无奈。

我......
还能怎样？

Kurang ajar punya TC xD

2009-11-20T00:17:00.002+08:00

let the story begins! xD

My mum chinese aren't that well,so she asked me to write some words for her.

Mum: eheh son...write a word for me.

*then i write for her*

Mum: it's like tat meh? (she's doubting the word i wrote for her it's correct or not)
Me: eh...how long has i been learning chinese?
Mum: eheh...i learned chinese till form 5 leh...u still only form 3 standard.
Me: ya rite...what's ur result for BC in form 5?
Mum: (paiseh) I failed.
Me: AHAHAHAHAHA ==

haha...pauline! i understand the feeling now by challenging ur parents in their exam...it's so fun! xD

I love my handphone even more now!!! xD

2009-11-19T23:47:00.002+08:00

GOSH! I can't believe how lucky I was for this. It's so darn fucking lucky!

2day,I went to play basketball in a court near my house with my brother. And guess wat? I left my handphone in the court!!! aka I LOST MY HP IN THE COURT!!!

I realised it just now and stunt. I straight away zoom to the court hoping to find my hp back. And I FOUND IT!!! haha...when I found my hp,I keep laughing at myself,till my throat pain now. AHAHAHAHAHA

AND after I came back,I checked facebook how lucky I am 2day...it's 96%!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ahahahahahahahaha...it should have been 100 eh?

OH MY PHONE...I LOVE U...SAYANG MUAHX! xD

Mess cleaned up part I

2009-11-16T12:47:00.005+08:00

After all sorts of nagging from my mum,I finally work my lazy ass out to clean up the mess I created to my room,my bro's room and the guest room. Not really fully clean up actually. Just part 1. Still need part 2 to fully clean up the mess.

So,these is the things I decided to throw it off(recycle) and reasons:
1. All exam papers,notes relating to sejarah,geografi,maths,kh,seni,pj,sivik,moral.
Reason:
won't be taking geo or kh for SPM anyway,so no point keeping.
sej n maths i considered myself too GOOD,so just keep the importants 1 n leave out all the BS
wat for keeping seni,pj,sivik n moral exam papers? bye bye to them.
2. All exercise booklet relating to sej,geo,maths,kh and science.
Reason:
nth much bout sej,geo,maths,kh. for science,i just don't think the exercise booklet is important. so,see ya!
3. All the jilids work book by Pusat Tuisyen Martin.
Reason:
just pure BS.
4. All the kertas conteng,surat makluman from school
Reason:
just useless
5. All books,papers relating to Komsas,Literature,Novel about BM,BI for PMR
Reason:
won't be studying back all those BS for SPM anyway,delighted to say goodbye to them. ahaha

Anyway,not just that. Thr's something I dunno what to do with them. Any opinions?
1. All the text books relating to Komsas,Literature,Novels,Maths,Science,Sej,Geo,KH,moral,sivik,pj...should i donate all these to school or recycle for money?
2. All text books relating to BM,BI n BC...should i keep these or donate to school or recycle?
3. All exam papers relating to BM,BI,BC and science...should i keep for reference or recycle it for money?
4. All revision books relating to Sej,Geo,KH...should i find someone to sell it(if gt ppl want) or recycle it for money?
5. All reference books relating to Komsas,Literature,Novels...same...sell it or recycle it?

The big headache is that I need to rearrange all the importants notes about BM n BI from another tuition of mine,Minda Ceria. All these notes is considered to be important for me but all those are in a mess and I'm thinking how to rearrange it in an ordinary ways.

And another small matters in consideration. Should I keep all those books,notes relating to BC. Most probably I might be taking BC for SPM. I dunno wat to do with it now. Mayb see the SPM format for BC 1st then only decided ba.

I guess that's all for this 1. Stay tune to LTC's mess cleaned up part II. Gd bye. xD

Study adi!? R u kidding me!?

2009-11-10T23:47:00.002+08:00

I've been thinking what to blog about besides my stupid feelings,finally I successfully korek some ideas out of my brain. =)

haha...ya...started tuition for Form 4 adi...not kidding u guys. PTM...Physics and Add Maths. What I rmb most is that when the physics teacher came in,he asked well,y we guys so rajin now already start tuitioning? must be kia shu(scare to lose) gang. ahaha...lols. not forget to mention tat the physics teacher is really a sissy man!

gosh! form 4 sej is crazy lo! it's like u're reading essays. n the chapters about the european is quite interesting n then the last chapter bout ekonomi of TM during british reign is so darn boring wei!

well,i guess tat's all i can crap it out.

p/s i felt it was pointless to post this half-way i wrote it,but nevertheless i choosed to finish it,at least i did something nice to my blog rather than spreading all stupid nonsense feelings of mine to my blog. sayang u bloggy! xD

2009-11-08T13:22:00.004+08:00

When you decided you wanted to leave me
I didn't say much
Just treated you as you were free

So many times I wanted to pull back
Intense begging was of no use
Just treated it as loneliness

Because I can understand
His kindness was a kind of release for you
Just honestly tell me
Who do you love the most?

Actually you really love him
As my punishment
Saying you didn't think of him
was pitying me, right?

I already don't have any excuses
I can only let go
I don't dare demand you
to say you love me

Actually you really love him
Is he really gentle?
Actually you really miss him
Just say it

I already don't want to say too much
I cover my ears
Don't want to hear you say again
that you really love him

Can you control what you dream?

2009-11-04T03:06:00.002+08:00

I don't what this means. I've been having dreams about the same person since last Saturday,either sweet one or heartbreaking one,but none of them bring any good to me.

Can someone control what he/she dreams about? If yes,I think I still can't let go...YET. But if no,I really don't know why.

I've been feeling better since Saturday. But all these dreams just kept me reminding of that person. FUCK

Can the I-dunno-who just stop letting me dreams about it!? T_T

That's it.

2009-10-31T18:43:00.002+08:00

What a day. Today is Halloween of 2009...and this day will haunt me forever in my life.

I felt like my life has gone. I don't know how to find it back at this very moment.

At one point in my relationship with her,I felt like I'm completely owned by her and she too had the same feeling. But it never was. It's just a matter of time before I slowly lose my touch on her. And now,I don't have the energy to grab her back and she was not mine anymore.

It's just being too cruel for me.

What is happening?

2009-10-22T13:38:00.003+08:00

I've never be in this sort of a feeling. I felt so down,so emotional,so sad. Everything that I tried to do seems against me. What happened? I felt everything around me is so cruel,so unkind,so evil. I felt so isolated,abandoned.

Everything is going downhill for me. I don't know where do I stand in everyone's eyes now. Why certain people must treat me like that? My emotion sinks to a level which I never experience before. I don't know how to handle it.

Unwelcomed?

2009-10-22T13:35:00.001+08:00

Just want to take photo with my teacher. I went into the group,trying to be inside the photo,but someone said:

Please go away.

Am I that unwelcomed? Or is it a balas to all what I had say to the others?

Regretted

2009-10-22T00:47:00.005+08:00

I can't believe that it was me actually who make the early stepback. I regretted it. I wish I could take it back but seems I had already leave myself no chance at all.

I really want to cry for the stupidest things I had ever done in my life.

I love Leong Sue Fen. =(

Find back the true self

2009-10-21T23:43:00.003+08:00

sorry for all the nonsense tat i gave.

Give me time ok? i need whole lots of time to find back myself,change my attitude...it's not an easy task. i know many ppl including u dun expect me can do it,but like u said,at least i tried rite?

I need to find back the TC tat was once arrogant,confident n have self dignity. all these have lost from me.

my arrogant make me feel bad bout myself.
my confidence sinks to the bottom low.
my dignity is easily shaken when ppl criticise me.

i need to find back the old me becoz...

I AM WHO I AM! =P

My feelings

2009-10-21T16:52:00.007+08:00

POINTLESS TO TALK TO ME

I dun get it...am I that hard to comprehend that she thinks it is just like talking to a bull?

If it is,I think I just have to work myself up like a bull to make myself better for her.

WHY MUST BE ME ONLY!?

Does she think me alone should have to change myself for the goods?

I ALWAYS WRONG!?

Am I alone should be responsible for all the quarrels with her?

Wonders

2009-10-20T22:16:00.002+08:00

Do I behave like a kid?

Do I really that irritating when I show my true colour?

Do I know how to treat a girlfriend?

Do I deserve her love?

Do I worthy of someone's appreciation?

Do I know what is dating?

Do I know what is love?

Does my attitude really got such a big problem that no one can accept?

Do I always get criticism?

Do I know how to appreciate love?

Do I know how to appreciate her?

Free like a bird

2009-10-14T22:03:00.002+08:00

whoa! finally PMR's over(ok...i just late update bout it). i'm transformed from a monkey to a bird dy! no need keep in the zoo(skul aka PMR) adi! yeah!

totally agree with vicki that whoever said PMR is easier than trial gt problem. mayb their year is true, but it is a completely different case tis year! ok...tis is the last time u're gonna hear me said bout PMR till i gt my result(another climax!)

haha...so wat's next after PMR?
erm...gaming aka water margining,sleeping,eat(!!!),sporting on tv and not to forget...DATING! xD

further plan will be reveal soon.
hapi freedom,every form3 students!!!

O.O

2009-09-18T22:51:00.001+08:00

What does your birthday say about you?

Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and pro...ductive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very Stubborn and money cautious.

Love Zodiac Profile

You are an exciting person to fall in love with. Your partner will feel lucky to be in love with you. You have a good sense of humor and your sweetheart will never fe...el bored with you. You are a very caring person. You like to flirt with the opposite sex. The opposite sex likes you because of your creative and innovative ideas. You are very loyal to your loved one and do not leave their side whatever be the case. At the same time, you are sensitive and emotional. You like to surprise your beloved with something or the other.

Your kissing style:You are a seductive kisser. Truly enticing.

To attract you, the opposite sex must be:Imaginative, different, must not be clingy, etc.

You are more compatible with -Aquarius, Gemini, Libra, Leo, Sagittarius
You are less compatible with -Taurus, Virgo, CancerRead More

Inspiration from Vicki =)

2009-09-05T19:04:00.002+08:00

wow! what a post i had read. GOOD vs EVIL(fight! x3 from her blog)

yes...we all knew the facts tat good will always conquer the evil in the end. so,fight the mr hyde inside ur heart and kick out all the habits a good student should have out of ur heart NOW!

PMR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

funny statement.proton xD

2009-09-05T18:53:00.002+08:00

haha...here's some funny thing for u guys. if it's not funny,don't say it out. oh nonono,even if it's really not funny at all,pretend it is funny n have a good laugh. get it guys? good. let's go

tuition teacher: most car accidents happened in m'sia involved a proton car.

scene changed.

TC: dad. how many times ur car(his old 1 n my future 1) involved in accidents?
Dad: twice.
TC: what type of car involved with ur car in those two accidents?
Dad: two also a proton car.
TC: xD ahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha(see! i told u it's funny. see the way i laugh)

T_T

2009-09-05T18:48:00.002+08:00

hey...i know that mental distraction is bad for exams,ESPECIALLY for PMR. so why am i still emo?! T_T

come on,TC! NO POINT,rmb!? i guess u do. good. now,kept tis in ur mind. thr's none could be done. PMR is everything now till 13 oct 09. yes i mean it.

PMR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Reaching for the sky-high dreams

2009-09-01T21:17:00.002+08:00

35 days left. After 3 years,8 months n 1 day of hard work,I finally see the end of my dream. BUT there's still 35 days left,just one step left,I can't lose ground now. The climax haven't over yet. Every hard work I done deserve to bring me one step closer to my dreams,but it's not a leap,it's step by step. All that matters now is the big one,PMR. Yes,with god blessing,I hope I can really reach for my dreams.

*Don't be sad. The climax ain't over yet. We said before we will reach for our dreams together. Come on,fire up!

No point

2009-08-31T23:33:00.004+08:00

no point for being emo. i'm goin to face the biggest challenge of my life yet and i need to face it without worrying bout other things to succeed.

no point for saddening becoz some people criticize ur personality. just cry out loud n have a good sleep and it will be another new day of fresh challenge ahead.

Conclusion: no point for worrying bout any other things but PMR. i must ignore everything. PMR,u're the only thing that occupy my heart now....AHAHAHAHA! xD

Focus on the big thing ahead...it's now or never. gambateh!

Fall at the final hurdle

2009-08-13T20:33:00.002+08:00

I never expected this to happen at all but the unexpected happened when you're least expect it. It strikes a blow to my confidence,a very huge one indeed. I'm just stunned now. I've lost all the sense of motivation to score well in this exam. What should I do? Well,maybe at first I can't treat this exam as just another test but now I think I could. I just don't know how to accept this failure now. I'm fast heading for a decline in both my confidence and my result.

Am I still myself? Do I know well about myself?

A bad day...=(

Why can't I score A?

2009-08-07T18:25:00.003+08:00

Tell me y...izzit I'm lazy or I'm just too stupid? Or mayb the paper is hard?

TC : good luck for ur BC paper.
GJY : u too. good luck. get ANOTHER 100%!
TC: ok. it's not funny. it's imposibble
GJY: LOL. you don't believe my words will come true also trust urself la...smart dude,you BOLEH 1 la

Sue: i ALWAYS know u CAN 1 rite?

i've heard enuf! i know myself well that i just cannot in the moment. all those consoling din have an effect on me at all and in fact it made me feel even down. coz i just can't do it when the paper is full format. all those high marks in the intervensi is just all pure luck. i know my level. i also know perfectly well that god of luck will not always be thr to help u.

mum n sue keep telling me it's JUST trial. they just wan me to stay positive. but does it work? NO! even u stay positive so wat!? u still already do bad in ur paper. nth can change. what is said is just half correct. ask urself la! if u can't score well in the trial,do u think u'll get a result totally different and even better a lot than the PMR?

it feels stupid when GJY said i'm smart but my marks are actually lower than her. what will u feel when ppl call u smart but ur result is sucker than theirs? it feels erm..funny i guess...LOLS

ok...i dun have any intention to update actually but it all changed after 2day BC paper.
nah...updated adi...but sorry if u're offended.
end of nonsense-bullshit-talk. bb

Suffering

2009-07-25T20:09:00.002+08:00

oh my gosh! it's so suffering. i'm sick! T_T

must be over-tired adi! yesterday backed home,i started to feel hot inside my body...tired. sue asked me to go check my body temperature. hypothesis accepted. i fall ill. went for clinic. the doctor said nowadays those ppl came for clinic fall ill. a normal situation? most probably.

still sick 2day. condition never turn good. pls! let me recover quickly as the trial is getting closer. =(

I'm useless =(

2009-07-23T22:35:00.003+08:00

She always be tough in front of me. But deep inside the bottom of her heart,she's weak. Everytime when I feel so helpless and clueless,she will always be there for me. But when she is in such condition,where am I? I'm nowhere to be there for her. I feel so bad. What else can I give her besides the calls and releasing my frustration and moddyness on her?

I'm just sorry! =(

Scout Hooray!

2009-07-22T21:01:00.002+08:00

argh! my leg so darn pain now,but sigh...no pay no gain. my leg earned me a moment of victorious. xD

faced 1 minor problem for this marching competition. u have to wear a black shoe. at 1st,i hoped yu kit have a black cotton shoe. he have but it's side is 9. not ngam for me. so,i had to wear my 2nd bro's cacated-black-leather-shoe for this competition. walaowei! it's not nice to wear at all seriously. leg pain becoz of it.

so,after school. me n yu kit went to eat our lunch. had a fun time with ming,sean,gwen n xiao. after that went down to the auditorium thr. had a practise at the tennis court thr be4 went into the venue for the competition,which is the auditorium. i was sweating like mad n to my disgust,a big C appeared in the sleeve thr. nvm bout that.

they checked our uniform be4 we do our marching. finished checking went inside did our marching. at 1st is fine but at the end thr lost focus n all sorts of mistake happened. it did make me feel that thr's no way we can won the competition. but hehe...when u think u're bad enuf,someone out thr is worse than u! xD scout won the best kawad team but finished second just behind kadet polis in the overall champs. well,i'm happy enuf coz when we took photo,i was just beside the trophy! xD

tat's all. buh-bye

Undeserve achievement

2009-07-21T19:52:00.002+08:00

i guess not only my frenz but myself too stunt by my class standing for the intervensi 3. it feels so unreal for me. no.2 in the class...isn't it a joke? well,i have to believe it myself that it is not. i really did gt no.2 in the class standing. what a 'luck'!

it's just ridiculous isn't it? i can't believe how lucky am i tis exam. with only 6As n 2Bs u couldn't expect me to be no.2 in the class. somehow one incident open the door for me to climb that never-reachable ladder. the eng paper. no offence to others. everyone was stunt by their marks. every unexpected things happened to everyone in tis paper. some of those ppl who r so darn good in their eng take a slump in their results all of a sudden.

ok...i should stop praising myself. it's just pure luck. i know whr i stand among others. i gt mixed reaction from others. some congratulate me,some vows to beat me in the trial. it did irritate me in some way. but as i have been learning recently,i shouldn't take things too seriously.

do tis exam fire my spirit? well,i dun feel so at all. all i hope for the trial is that i can at least get the results which can boost my confidence heading to the big 1,PMR. i really scare that i will take a huge slump in the trial. if it really happen, no doubt it'll break down my spirit =(

but one particular person does give me the motivation i wish for-
Dad: good job,boy. keep up
me: =)

Impossible task? -.-

2009-07-20T20:43:00.002+08:00

20 days be4 trial n 78 days be4 PMR...and i still haven't slow down my online habits. i should be insaf n stop onlining isn't it?! should get myself surrounded by books than computersssssssss...but can i do it? =(

*do ur best n hope for the best...gambateh!

=(

2009-07-20T20:35:00.003+08:00

she realised that i changed my pencil box bac to the old 1(blue 1 of coz eh?). i dumped her 1st present to me. i saw the disappoinment on her face. i dun care bout it at 1st. but...how could i ever ignored her feeling!? i'm sorry. =(

p.s. counting down to the day...3 more days (or 4? lols).

back to lala land of homework

2009-07-20T20:20:00.002+08:00

gosh! how could i miss her? once she came back,the world turn black. all miserable thing happened. her usual text-book-hw-bomb bac to the helm again. T_T

anyway,wonder she gave birth to a boy or a girl. but ish! shouldn't she take good care of her kid at home? she should be given extra time to take care of her child. not coming bac to the school n continuing her all-so-irritating-teaching-schedule. =_=

was kinda exciting that she came bac at 1st. sigh...mayb din see her for so long adi suddenly forget her evil style teaching method. once she ordered to take out our text book,the whole class jeer. can't she see our reaction?! haiz...she dun give a damn anyway isn't it? worse come to worst...she wan the hw to be done 2moro! wat the tootttttttttt! irritating!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! T_T

I need her very much

2009-07-15T00:03:00.003+08:00

When I feel lonely,the only thing I want is for her to be by my side. Her presence make me feel better.

Haha...I feel like I'm her gf more than her bf. I need her more than she need me.

xD!
Missing u so much now! =(

The end of the Intervensi exam series

2009-07-09T20:32:00.004+08:00

wow! finally intervensi 3 ended and that mark the end of the Intervensi exam series...we should be celebrating it rite? well,mayb yes mayb not. thr's still the bigger 1 coming soon: PMR percubaan n PMR...yes i mean PMR in another 89 days i think. oh! let's not talk bout it isn't it? should be enjoying the current moment rite?! woohoo!

wasn't sleeping well at all for the past 4 days. keep taking OT for studying...sigh...kesan akibat tidak membuat persiapan awal...who can be blame but urself. but nevertheless the joy of getting through it feels good...well,in another 90+ days time u will get the best undefining joy of ur life so far...i think u know what i mean rite?

let's talk bout the papers. gosh! BM was kinda ok but i dunno how sucky the results could turn out. BI slightly better than BM...hope can get good results. Maths...well,pray for the best as i can't n am not willing to predict the results...it is tougher than the dianogstics lo! Science...erm...guess do kinda well gua...A is good enuf! haha. Sej...i'm not puas with it...it's kinda hard n i know i once again fail to get 90+ T_T. Geo...din study much...can get A happy adi. KH...argh! pls give me an A!!! n lastly...den den den dang...ngek ngek ngek ngek...BC!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! u know what i mean for my BC paper rite? haha!!!!!!!!!

sigh...one more month be4 PMR trial exam...well,i mean basically u have no rest time at all. next week start preparing for it might just do fine for everyone rite? lols

p/s frenz out thr take care of ur health coz influenza A(H1N1) is spreading(cacat language) among the students.

Sunshine

2009-07-09T17:10:00.000+08:00

I love you too doink ! :D
ROAR :D

Look carefully at the post time :D

Teddy Bear

2009-06-30T20:55:00.002+08:00

You said I'm caring. Well,I just do what can I do as a bf. Honestly,not only you felt that,I feel I did very little too. Those little things that I did to show consideration for you it's like never satisfying me. I dun feel that you feel very happy enough. I want to do more,but currently I dun think I'll be able to do it. Still,the hapiness you showed in front of me make me feel glad,but something I feel guilty for doing so little. Give me time ok? I CAN DO MORE THAN THAT!!! =P

Eh...pinch me lesser k? xD Honestly it's pain lo! T_T xD

erm...i dunno what more to post...but i hope tis song can help me express myself. xD

Michael Jackson
I Just Can't Stop Loving you

Lyrics:
I Just Want To Lay
Next To You
For Awhile
You Look So
Beautiful Tonight
Your Eyes Are So Lovely
Your Mouth Is So Sweet
A Lot Of PeopleMisunderstand Me
That's BecauseThey Don'tKnow Me At All
I Just Want To Touch You
And Hold You
I Need You
God I Need You
I Love You So Much

[Michael] Each Time The Wind Blows
I Hear Your Voice
So I Call Your Name . . .
Whispers At Morning
Our Love Is Dawning
Heaven's Glad
You Came . . .

You Know How I Feel
This Thing
Can't Go Wrong
I'm So Proud To Say
I Love You
Your Love's Got Me High
I Long To Get By
This Time Is Forever
Love Is The Answer

[Siedah]
I Hear Your Voice Now
You Are My Choice Now
The Love You Bring
Heaven's In My Heart
At Your Call
I Hear Harps,
And Angels Sing

You Know How I Feel
This ThingCan't Go Wrong
I Can't Live My LifeWithout You

[Michael]
I Just Can't Hold On

[Siedah] I Feel We Belong

[Michael]
My Life Ain'tWorth Living
If I Can't Be With You

[Both]
I Just Can'tStop Loving You
I Just Can'tStop Loving You
And If I Stop . . .
Then Tell Me
Just WhatWill I Do

[Siedah]
'Cause I Just Can't StopLoving You

[Michael] At Night When TheStars Shine
I Pray In You
I'll FindA Love So True . . .
[Siedah] When Morning Awakes Me
Will You Come
And Take Me
I'll Wait For You

[Michael]
You Know How I Feel
I Won't Stop
UntilI Hear Your Voice Saying"I Do"

[Siedah]
"I Do"This ThingCan't Go Wrong

[Michael]
This Feeling's So Strong

[Siedah]
Well, My Life Ain'tWorth Living

[Both]
If I Can't Be With You
I Just Can'tStop Loving You
I Just Can'tStop Loving You
And If I Stop . . .
Then Tell Me,
Just WhatWill I Do

[Michael]
I Just Can'tStop Loving You

[Siedah]
We Can ChangeAll The WorldTomorrow

[Michael]
We Can Sing Songs OfYesterday

[Siedah]
I Can Say, Hey .. .FarewellTo Sorrow

[Michael] This Is My Life And I,

[Both]
Want To See YouFor AlwaysI
Just Can'tStop Loving You

[Siedah]
No, Baby

[Michael]
Oh!

[Both]
I Just Can'tStop Loving You

[Siedah] If I Can't Stop![

Both]
And If I Stop . . .

[Siedah]
No

[Michael] Oh! Oh! Oh . . .Oh . . .

[Siedah]
What Will I Do?
Uh . . .Ooh . ..(Then Tell Me, Just WhatWill I Do)

[Both]
I Just Can'tStop Loving You

[Michael]
Hee! Hee! Hee! Know I DoGirl!

[Both]
I Just Can'tStop Loving You

[Michael]
You Know I DoAnd If I Stop . . .

[Both]
Then Tell Me, Just WhatWill I Do
I Just Can'tStop Loving You

Little green monster xD

2009-06-27T19:34:00.002+08:00

haha...i was late to update bout tis,and forget too. but none the less my girl demands me to update bout it. so,here it is.

wednesday 24 june 2009. saw the present on my chair after bac from PJ. the present is wrapped up n put inside a small shopping bag. at 1st i dunno who gave it to me. but after a while i realised it was from sue fen. haha...sean was asking me to open the present but i refused coz i haven't get permission from her. so,when recess thank her for the present. she asked me to open the present coz the wrapper is awkful...but again i refused. then,when bac to class after recess,i received a card from her in which i think leow gave me. n i read it. so touching. xD

after school,she again ask me to open the present but still i refused. so it was until i went home that i only open it. haha...it's a toy. a little green monster. here is how i describe it's look:

a little small head with an small eye then follow by a big head with a big eye then followed by a tiny body with a heart in front of the body.

i guess u dunno what i'm crapping. it's not easy to hold it when i'm sleeping coz it's kinda small but i guess i managed to have it by my side when i'm sleeping. lols

n the little green monster is on my lap currently. buh-bye!
updated. =P

Tribute to the King Michael Jackson

2009-06-26T20:56:00.002+08:00

He was the most exciting and popular performer during his generation,well-known for his breathtaking live performance and stunning music. His once-stellar career had placed him among the great in the music history. He was one of the world's famous man during his life,not only for his bizarre music career but also his highly publicized personal life. If everyone can put aside all those sexual abuse allegations against him and his surgically altered appearence,he will be as gunuine as any music great in the history of music.

I'm deeply saddened over the death of the King of Pop as any MJ's fans. The world just lost the biggest pop star in history. His legacy and contribution to the music world will live long forever and ever and will always be remembered by many fans of him,including me of course.

Here's my top 10 rating of the best song of Michael Jackson:
10. I just Can't Stop Loving You
9. You Rock My World
8. Don't Stop 'til You Get Enough
7. The Way You Make Me Feel
6. Bad
5. Thriller
4. Smooth Criminal
3. Black or White
2. Beat It
1. Billy Jean

I got it!!!

2009-06-18T21:17:00.001+08:00

haha...finally I gt what I desperate for! The moment was so nice,so sweet!